Hey guys, I am bored and cant sleep so I
figured i'd spend some time on the comp
and vent a little. I have been having
a rough 2 hours today. I got home from
work and at the end of the car ride I kind
of yell at my bf because I get mad that he
says he doesn't mind picking me up from
work when I know he does because he works
9 hours a day and to top it off he has to
stay up an extra 2 hours to drive at night
to pick me up from work. I said I was
going to quit so I he didn't have to do it
and he was like "i don't mind" and I said
"well don't sit here and say that and then
at the same time talk about how tired you
are, make up your mind" and as I said
"make up your mind" his mom heard and got
mad that I was yelling at him and gave me
caca about it without knowing what the
argument was and it was about something I
wanted to do in his favor. Well I go
outside in my car crying because I just
got attacked as soon as I got home for no
reason and he comes out saying that
everything is ok and to come inside and
there will be no confrontation. Just
as I am about to, his mom comes out
screaming "you two better get the make
love to in the house right now" obviously
I am not going to come to that kind of
request of that nature especially since
that attitude was the very reason I didn't
want to come in in the first place.
Well I tell him to go inside to make it
better but he doesn't and I run to the
driveway crying and he's comforting me,
meanwhile his mom sits on the steps
thinking I will actually come when she's
there. I run down to the beach even
though my bf asked me not to and stay
there for about 5 min. (we live on the
beach kind of) I go back to the house and
look inside secretivly and there is his
mom sitting there waiting for me to come
in which is stupid because I don't want to
see her or feel her eyes on me so I will
not come in as long as she is there and
she should know this. Well she goes to
bed, I come in the house and me and him
talk about the caca she said about me.
Stuff about how I always yell and I do
yell alot but I get frusturated so easily
and I need to vent somehow and I end up
taking it out my bf and she hates it.
Well she was talking about that and how I
can't take my medicine which she failed to
notice I have been taking everyday for the
past week and a half and when my bf told
her that, she said "well, pfft". Oh, I
get slammed for not taking it but no one
notices when I do take it.
everyday I used to hear "did you take your
pill" and I would say no, but since I have
started taking it, I notice she is somehow
unconciously psychic and only asks on days
when I don't take it at my now usual time.
I got so pissed off one day when she
made a whole big deal out of it by turning
the car around so I could take my pill.
as if that one day really mattered to make
such a big deal out of it like that.
Anyway I was talking with my bf and I said
that I wanted to move out and I meant it.
I want out and away from parents.
They do this stupid thing where she works
overnighters at work and his dad has to
come home every night she is not there and
she is there every night he isn't. Why
not hire a babysitter when they go out to
eat then? All his dad does is give a
boring lecture about how you should take
bs from work just for the sake of it being
that way sometimes. No wonder it's
that way, people like him and my dad let
it happen so it will always happen.
That and he talks about how "fat" my bf is
and how he shouldn't eat dinner one night
when he hadn't had anything to eat so I
had to feed him my leftover hamburger sub
and 3 corndogs. He talks about how
stupid it is and how disrespectful it is
to buy 2 pizzas for the both of us instead
of one, but if it wasn't for me saving
those extra peices that we get from
leftovers he wouldn't have lunch on
certain days. (mine are always eaten)
if we pay for the damn pizza, shut the
make love to up and let us enjoy it
I hate it when
parents want to pay for stuff for you and
insist that you don't pay for it at all
and then go the cheap route.
anyway sorry this is so long.
Btw can anyone take in a 17 year old
unwanted girl? No baby momma drama here
just in case that would be an issue.
I'll wash dishes if I can't pay rent.
No house hold pile is too big once you're
a dishwasher in a restuarant.
i'll do housework as long as your house is
actually cleanable and I don't have to
scratch my head for an hour wondering how
to tackle a certain mess.
Oh and can anyone take me to work
tomorrow? I don't want any contact
with my bfs mom and she is the only one
who could get me to work unless I could
bum a ride.
