It helped me to confide in people close to me and tell them about my disorder. Therefore, everyone was kind of expecting me to get professional help. I owed it to myself and to them, too. But primarily to myself, of course.

You just have to find your inner strength to do so.. And u have to want to get better before you can try. My son (hes 2 weeks) was/is my inspiration to do so.. You need to find your reason to want to get better too*

Our disorder does cause problems. Physically and mentally. Bulimics show different, less obvious, less sympathetic signs. The acidity of your bile will erode the enamel of your teeth causing cavities, yellowing, and pitting. It also causes your gumline to receed which can only be fixed by surgical grafting. Not to mention it causes some serious halitosis. Eventually the acid erodes your esophagus and can cause ulceration or worse...Cancer. I now have to take medication (nexium) to keep from coughing up acid at night. It throws your electrolites off balance and causes your complexion to look rough and dry. At first I was forced into therapy after I lost my theatre scholarship. My coach and school counselor told my parents I would eventually die if I went to california. I thought my psychiatrist was ignorant and still do. He thought it was a high school fad and I would just grow out of it. I finally broke down 5 years later and made my husband come with me to see a new psych. I wanted him to understand what I went thru. I don't know about you, but when I eat and purge I am disgusted w/ myself and loathe myself. I wallow in my misery purging until I feel as empty and vacant as my stomach. I feel like a hollow, whisper of a person. But, i'm bi-polar too. So I obviosly have some issues to deal with. You want help...Otherwise you wouldn't post messages. This is a good place to start. Think of yourself as an alcoholic only your addiction is food. The only reason most alcoholics get help is b/c they're forced to by the law after they've been dwi. Unfortunately there's no law that applies to bulimia. We have to push ourselves to seek help. Others are afraid to approach us about it. It's hard and uncomfortable. If talking is you're beginning in seeking help...Talk away. Everyone here understands.

Hi, thanks so much for everybody's encouragement. I almost decided to get better but then I realized nobody cared anymore so I started starving myself also. I am really losing weight now. Oh well

Wow that sounds incredibly nieve of u..................

Especialy with the little smiley face like its some joke that u take so light heartedly. And what do u mean no one cared? People replied here so they obviously cared. Plus, if u want to get better, it has to be for you.

I was bulemic for 6 years. It started at age 19 when my gymnastics carrer ended and I started to gain weight. I got to be sickly thin and my best friend said if I did not tell someone she would. She told me she would rather not have me as a friend and be healthy than watch me die very slowly. My body was worn out from throwing up 7 and 8 times a day. I could not fight off a cold. I ruined the enamal on my teeth. You know what though when she told me I had to tell someone I was relieved. I wanted help. I was tired of being mentally and physically ill. Only you can want the help! It starts with you! I sruggled months and months with therapy. Slowly my purging got fewer and far between. I struggle every day but I am healthy now and I am happy. I don't feel like I am on a merry go round. Circle after circle going nowhere. You have to want this for you to get the help you need.