To all anti abortion foes,

i post this message with a challenge. I am 31 years old, and have recently gotten my girlfriend pregnant. I make 6.75 per hour. While I am a very intelligent and educated (self educated) person, I did not attend college after graduating high school. I made the choice to party instead, and to this day am paying the price, and not crying to anyone about it.

This brings us to the abortion. I am against it personally. I do not enjoy the thought of terminating my unborn child. I detest it, to be perfectly honest. However, I detest one thing more. Thinking of my child growing up without good toys, or having fun, or having to live in a fleabitten apartment. I suffer from depression and anxiety, and cannot afford the medications I need to balance out my life so I can function properly. Therefore I must rely on the bottom of the mill jobs to sustain my life.

So let’s break this down. 6.75 per hour, at 40 hours a week. No overtime, as our company is suffering from the recession. And I am mentally not able to hold two jobs, due to my disability. 270.00 per week gross, which comes to 1080.00 gross monthly. After good ol uncle sam takes my federal taxes, and ssi (which will be obsolete when it is time for me to retire, I guarantee), medicare (also will be obsolete), and of course lady virginia helping herself to the state taxes, this leaves me about 700.00 per month, roughly. Of course, I have to pay rent, pay my car payment, insurance, and buy food. Oh yeah, I forgot about the lights and water. But then again, we all have to do this, so i’m sorry if I sound whiny. But they have to be paid. So I do this, I go out and work to pay my bills, and I come straight home, and I don’t complain about it. I cannot afford to go out and have fun obviously, and I don’t steal or sell drugs, as I am an honest person. So this proves I have integrity. Now let’s figure my young one in the equation. My now ex-girlfriend, who does not work, has moved out to go back to her parents. We are not together. She will get custody, as her living situation is much better. Provided we don’t have the abortion of course. Ok, so I have a responsibility here. I am not one of those deadbeat loser dads, I clean up my mess, and if I am going to bring a child in this world, I am going to take full responsibility. So, with today’s laws, half of my net pay will go to child support. I can barely stay afloat as it is getting all of my 6.75 per hour salary that remains of what the feds and the state took from me. I guess that dosent leave very much for my child, does it? I’m sure you all can imagine what a wonderful life he or she is going to have. Won’t it be nice for him to see other kids playing with nice toys, and when he is watching tv on the black and white 13’’ screen, because that is all we can afford for him, i’m sure he we be having a wonderful time. Oh, and when he hits his teen years. Im sure living in poverty, coveting other people’s nice things all his life, and never having anything good will be great for his morals. I’m absolutely convinced he will remain outside of the juvenile justice system. If not, I guess I should be content with the fact that he will find some scam to get by on, be it sell drugs, or steal. Just another statistic, another small paragraph in the local crime section of the daily newspaper.



So, does it sound like I am some bloodthirsty monster who wishes to abort and kill an unborn baby, or a sympathetic human being that cannot stand the thought of possibly having a son or daughter growing up in a horrible life? Because if I could provide better, I assure you I would. So, I still have some time left. The abortion has not happened. So, what do I do? Do I go through the abortion, knowing I am killing off a part of me, a human being with feelings that could either be the next president of the united states, or could be the next john gotti? I agree, this is not the best choice. But do you really think you have the right to tell me or tom next door to you what to do? I know you have an unfounded respect for life, as do i. I know you loathe the fact that a human being is being killed. Does it make it easier for the parents to think of it as a mercy killing? I simply don’t have the answer for that. I just know that right now, I look at it as a gamble. A spin on the roulette wheel. What if I convinced my ex-girlfriend to give up our child for adoption? She too does not feel she could be a good mother. Yes, we are now providing a life, and we have avoided the abortion. So how do I know my kid is not going to live with cinderella’s stepmother? Do I have to agonize over this my whole life? After thinking of all this, I have come up with a solution. It is the answer to the challenge I stated at the beginning of this post, the challenge which has not been revealed yet. I will forgo the abortion. No problem, it will not be done. If you can save one life, here is your chance. All it takes is just one of you. So here it is. You have an absolute guarantee that this abortion will not happen. If I bring a child in this world, and raise that child, that child is going to be raised like the king of england. He or she is going to have impeccable morals, a strong sense of self pride, and will be the best person on earth. I have the integrity to teach and instill this into a person. I just cannot afford it financially. My child will need to have a place to study, and a safe warm bed to sleep in at night. I safe home to come home to, filled with food so he or she can eat when hungry. Money to pay the electrical bill so at night when he or she needs to study, they will have power coursing through the wiring in my home to provide electricity to light the light bulb on the lamp that hovers over their studies. So, I will just need one person out there to send me 1000.00 per month, of which every single dollar will go to the benefit of my child. This means, if my wheel blows out, I will have some money to get a new tire, so I can go to the store to get my child’s diapers and milk. So that if he or she is six years old and develops a learning disability, I can pay a tutor to help them. So that in the winter, I can afford to pay for insulated coats, so that the love of my life does not freeze to death out there. All of which I cannot do on my salary. Again, I do not complain about my position in life. I would love to go out and have a nice dinner, and I would love to go to the amusement park sometime, or take a trip to the beach. But I cannot. I get by doing what I can. As I said, I am sick. I suffer from anxiety and depression, and I cannot change that. I cannot change the hand that has been dealt to me. I cannot change the past, and go back and not have unprotected sex like I did. Shoulda, coulda, woulda will do no good now. What matters is what I do now. Plain and simple. So, are there any takers out there? If you are willing to support my unborn child, and help me give them the life that I cannot provide, then you have accomplished your goal of preventing another lost life. But I stress, that my child’s life could be lost, even after they are born, and they go through life without means to provide for them, or without someone to love them. I just cannot bear that to happen.

God bless.

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