Hey everyone! This may be kindda long but please read--
**the other day I was walking jaydyn around at like 2 am so she'd go to sleep and I saw the innocence in her eyes and I thought of what a great life I wanted to give her...So I started thinking about god. I woke my mom up and we started talking and she said that when she got preg. With me(she was unwed and 21) my grandma dragged her to an abortion clinic to abort me, but my mom refused and had me. I started thinking about what would have been of me if she would have aborted me?!? I wouldn't be here..Im here b/c of gods will. I went to church sunday and got a new perspective on life..I redidicated my life to christ!--they are giving jaydyn a baby dedication sometime soon to essentially "give her back to god"-- im going to start getting into church, going every wednesday , and sunday. Teach jaydyn about god and get her into church. Im going to b a devout christian.. Im even thinking of giving my testimony at church.. To some of you I know this comes a huge suprise, but the bible says u must profess ur faith by ur mouth--to let everyone know and not b ashamed, and im not..I want everyone to know my new life..Ive changed in an instant and im so proud of myself-- no more bad things in my life, im washing out the negatives...
Me and zane have gotten back together and were gonna see where things go..Hes a great "father" to jaydyn and loves her very much. Im not having sex again until im married and if he cant hold out then nothing will happen between us.
Thanks for listening, and if I ever said anything to make one of you mad or angry at me-im sorry, please forgive me..
*for jen, ive finally come to terms and I forgive you for what u've done and ive forgiven all that have said something to make me mad or angry with them*

I hope that oneday in everyones future they find god ---ive noticed a huge difference in myself already!