There are times when im around people I feel a chaotic, horryfying feeling of paralysis, where I cannot talk, my heart beat thunders and I start sweating too (especially around women) I feel im being terryfyingly judged, I have tried some techniques including self-mind control which has helped but other then that I cannot speak, also so weird that when I drink alchahol it dissapears!!!! I feel my speech returning and can talk freely, make freinds and pick up women.. The worst part is when I am sober these people look kind of shocked to find me now a quiet, awkard, weird acting guy, even worse I know exactly when its happening and what they are thinking when im in this mode.



I just dont understand myself, im 25 and I need help. I have been single all my life, if I can beat it it would obvously help.



I recently studied admin where every other student was female, I self destructed at times and felt miserable. Yet people with asian or african decent I feel no anxiety towards, which has prompted me to ask the question on the society of western culture. I litterally feel im talking to a demon when im talking to a western mind. My mind is paralysed and horrible things happen.