Bipolar Teenager In Need of Suggestions Posted: 07-11-04 02:14am
Hello,
i am a 15-year-old in need of advice, well
more like motivation.
In march 2003 I was diagnosed with bipolar
disorder after my usual moody self became
way out of control. I had quit school
after two months, and was utterly
terrified of going back.
I was first put on zoloft and depakote,
which did not work well because the
depakote left me without any emotion; so
after about 6 months I changed to another
doctor who put me on zonegran. At the
same time I worked on trying to get back
into school, since home-schooling failed
due to my distractions at the computer;
but eventually I got back into a high
school that also let you take college
classes while at it.
Everything seemed fine, my medicine
stabilized me, I was at school, getting
good grades as I used to, and spent my
nights happily on the computer.
Unfortunantly, this past march I relapsed
bad and had a suicide attempt, and I
refused to go back to school afterwards.
To get to the point really. I am going to
this one clinic program where they are
going to look over me carefully and make
sure my medicine are stabilized, and also
help me get into a good school. But I was
wondering if there was any suggestions
anyone could give me about getting rid of
my fear of going to school, and
especially, getting rid of my fear of
people.
My life is going down the drain and if it
keeps up I will be nothing more than the
computer that I type on. So any
suggestions, any at all, would help.
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Coffee0ooYummy
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Jul 2004 Posts: 16 Location: Maryland
Posted: 07-13-04 12:13pm
Hi hun, it sounds like you have panic
disorder too. You might have to look
deeper into yourself to try and find the
fear that haunts you about school.
What happens to you when you think of goin
back to school? Do you feel your heart
race and feel panicy? Do you start
sweating? Most times there is another
disorder that runs with bipolar. I have
bipolar and panic disorder and I am in the
process of finding out if I also have add.
The only problem with add is that many
of the signs are also signs of bipolar.
So it will be really hard to diagnose if I
do actually have it. I really hope
things work out for you hun and that you
finish school....I quit school and never
went back and I wish that I had stayed in.
I was diagnosed when I was 14 so I know
how you are feeling and dealing with being
a bipolar teen. If you ever need to
talk you can email me at brend
ricky@hotmail.Com or message me on msn
messenger at the same email addy.
Huuuuuuuuuuuuugs darlin.......Bren
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tina_28
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Jul 2004 Posts: 11 Location: India
Posted: 07-13-04 14:44pm
Hi ashura,
dont worry. These are all the symptoms of
depression: social rejection, refuse to go
to school, loss of interest in previously
enjoyed activities, etc.
There are various treatment available for
this type of disorder- medication,
psychotherapy and self help techniques.
Please don't stop taking the medication or
changing your dosage without talking to
your doctor first. Remember not to give
up on your medication too soon! It may
take up to six weeks to work properly.
Surviving a depressive episode does not
mean that life is suddenly beautiful.
There are ways in which you can begin to
change in this way.
I found that the best way to cope with
such intense discomfort was to live my
life one day at a time. There are various
simple techniques for depression self help
such as exercise, laugh, prayer, deep
breathing, meditation, etc. You can find
more on this here http://depr
ession-guide.Com/depression-self-help.Htm<
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i'm 14 and i'm trying to figure out
whether or not I might have bipolar. I
was wondering if you could help me out a
little. All the women on my mother's
side of my family have some sort of
depression. My 17-year-old brother was
diagnosed with add and depression last
year and he's doing a bit better. I just
started marching band camp this week, and
I asked stephen if he could help me with
the digital 8 routine, and somehow, we got
into a fight. He and I have never been
really close, and we fight a lot, but
tonight I hit him across the head and
walked away. Well, he came after me and
started pushing me around. I finally
slammed the door on his face and that was
the end of it, right. Wrong.
I went downstairs feeling excited and
pumped up after our freshman dance, and in
the course of about 10 minutes, I went
from being excited to being annoyed,
angry, amused, sad, then to just feeling
empty. This isn't the first time it's
happened either, the mood swings, that is.
Just a couple of weeks ago I was so
down, I just stayed in bed, wondering what
the lives of my friends and family would
be like without me. I came away from
that really scared because I like my life,
but I just couldn't help feeling that way.
I've wondered uhat before and since that
incident and it scares me every time but I
haven't talked to anyone about it.
Mainly because I don't want to trouble
them, or i'm worried about how they'll
take it, I haven't even told my best
friend, who's usually the first person I
tell, I trust her so much. I'm just
really scared of what people will think
and how they'll see me afuerwards. Can
you offer some advice? What did you
do?
By the way, I agree with tina, a journal
would be good for you. I wrote in a
journal after my grandfather, who was my
hero, died, and it helped tremendously.
I still write in it today. It's my way
of letting off some steam, and i'm the
only one who see's it. Try it, it
shouldn't hurt anything.
