Hi yall, I am new to this forum and
thought I would give you all a bit of info
on me. My name is brenda but yall can
call me bren, I am 31 years old and have
been married to a gem of a man for 16
years this coming august. Hubby and I
have 3 sons together and hubby is a truck
driver.
I was diagnosed bipolar when I was 14
years old while being hospitalized in a
psychiatric ward. I was hospitalized
for almost 3 months. I met hubby while I
was in the hospital, I was eventually
allowed to leave the hospital to go to
school and that is where we met, he didnt
mind that I was hospitalized and didnt
mind that I am bipolar. He is a treasure.
I stopped takin the lithium about a
month after I was released from the
hospital and didnt start on medication
again til may of 2001. I don't know how
hubby put up with me all this time of
being unmedicated but he did and
understood me, there were times I was
violent towards him but he would just grab
hold of me and hold me tight till I calmed
down, like I said he is a treasure. I am
very lucky to have him in my life.
I am currently taking 40 mgs of celexa
and 5 mgs of zyprexa and 500 mgs of
depakote. My dr is weening me off of the
zyprexa because it has made me borderline
diabetic, so soon I will only be taking
the celexa and the depakote. But
hopfully he can give me something to help
me fall asleep. When I was on the 10 mgs
of zyprexa I was allways ready for bed by
9 o'clock but now I cant fall asleep, or I
will lay there for hours b4 I finally do
fall asleep. My mind wont stop
running.
I can't hold down a job, I have tried many
a time and finally just gave up and am
currently in the process of trying to get
social security disability for the
bipolar. I have never been able to hold a
job for more than 7 months and when I
leave it is either in a fit of rage or I
am in tears telling them I quit. I also
have no attention span and no sense of
time and most times no sense of
obligation. I will be talking to you and
you to me and I will be looking you right
in the eye and not hear a word you have
said to me. Things have to be explained
to me over and over and most the time if I
have to do something (obligation) I will
forget all about it. I have a program on
my computer to try and help me with all
this ( like taking my medication) it sets
off alarms at specific times reminding me
to do things otherwise I would forget to
do them.
Well this took a long time to type out, I
kept stopping and comming back to it and
had to retype it all cause apparently it
timed out on me lol I hit preview and I
had to sign in again and poof everything I
typed was gone lol. Gonna copy it this
time b4 I hit submit incase it gets me
again lol. You all have a great
day......Huuuuuuuugs bren
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purple333
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Dec 2003 Posts: 1420 Location: Sydney
Posted: 07-07-04 19:26pm
Hi bren,
your husband sure is a treasure - you
mention 3 boys do they take after him??
if so how old I
have a 16 yr old dtr who needs a treasure
of a guy in her life!! :d
you sound like sleep is definitely needed
& it might help the concentration,
after all no-one can concentrate when
tired or too drugged.
Just a couple of thoughts, do you do any
daily exercise (tired body might help
sleep) - do you keep your mind active
right up until you go to bed or do you try
to unwind before bed so that your mind is
more ready for sleep.
Warm milk helps many people sleep. The
opposite of unwinding your mind helps
others - reading, tv, knitting etc.
Another thing that might be worth trying
but it takes awhile to get used to it
& learn so that you can get it to work
& the committment may be a problem -
relaxation/meditation.
There is also a machine ces - check out
dynamind.Com - health pax - it runs on a
9v battery & adjusts brain waves &
it heps sleep, pain, depression, anxiety
etc _ it has really helped me & you
can use it while watching tv or whatever -
they (dynamind) also have a thing called a
thoughtstream which I have just ordered as
it seems like it would help me further but
I have yet to try it (obviously) but you
might check it out at their site too.
Anyway good luck.
Cheri
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Coffee0ooYummy
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Jul 2004 Posts: 16 Location: Maryland
Posted: 07-09-04 21:52pm
Hi cheri,
thanks for the reply. Yes I do get
exercise every monday thru friday. I go
work out at the gym for 30 mins a day it's
like curves. I will try the machine
thing out but it will have to wait a
little while til after I get my bills
paid. I am allways so worried bout the
bills, makes hubby upset at times he says
he knows what is due and I need to calm
down about the bills lol. How much does
it cost? Do you remember? And by the
way.......I have a son who will be 16 on
sept 2 lol. He's almost 6 foot tall
and has long dark brown hair and a beard
and mustache ............ Lol
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purple333
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Dec 2003 Posts: 1420 Location: Sydney
Posted: 07-10-04 14:43pm
Bren, if you go to dynamind.Com you'll see
the cost which is $295 which includes a
thoughtstream machine as well & free
postage within the states - the
thoughtstream is a sound & light
machine - if you check dynamind & also
alphastim.Com you'll get the details of
what these machines can do - but alpha
stim is dearer!!!!
Try the other things I suggested (unless
you already have) re helping you sleep -
reading, warm milk, relaxation etc etc etc
- it can't hurt.
My daughter was 16 on may 21 is 5ft tall
with long brown hair!! & brown eyes -
no beard or mustashe !!!! I also have a
son 9 who is a totally "wild thing"!!
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mia
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Jan 2004 Posts: 147 Location: dallas
Coffeeoooyummey Posted: 07-18-04 14:31pm
Hi,
i'm mia, just wanted to let you know to
get off the the zyprexa. There is a
classaction lawsuite going on for the
people who have developed diabetes due to
taking zyprexa. Several of the symptoms
you described can be related to diabetes ,
so the next time you have a doctors
appointment get tested. I also was
taking zyprexa and developed diabetes,
with all the confusion and symptoms you
were describing. Also, if you have
developed diabetes, find out about the
classaction lawsuite, you might be
intitled to medical reimbursement.
Good luck
mia
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Coffee0ooYummy
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Jul 2004 Posts: 16 Location: Maryland
Posted: 07-19-04 10:15am
Hi mia,
i contacted someone about the lawsuit but
they said since it was caught b4 I became
full blown diabetic there is nothing they
can do. I am now borderline diabetic
because of the zyprexa.
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Ruby of the Water
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 Jul 2004 Posts: 43 Location: Michigan
Medication And Me And U Posted: 07-22-04 06:53am
Coffee,
i agree coffee has been my med of choice
for the past 10 years. I have been
diagnoisied as bipolar type ii which has
major depression so coffee keeps me up!
Instead of down.
i have been so frustrated working with a
psychologist to get a med regime that
works for me. Ugh! Thanks for the
warning on the z med. Does anyone have
any success with mood stabilizers? For
what it is worth...I have been on lexapro
for the last 6 weeks and depression is not
as deep for me. But as always let's wait
and see what will be...(taken off effexor
and lithum and put on estrogen patch and
lexapro)
ruby
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purple333
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Dec 2003 Posts: 1420 Location: Sydney
Alternatives!! Posted: 07-22-04 07:51am
People please look into ces machines
(dynamind.Com or alpha-stim.Com) &
also sound & light machines - these
may be of help to you.
if so how old I
have a 16 yr old dtr who needs a treasure
of a guy in her life!! :d 
