Hi there
i'm sorry I can't really help you, I don't have bipolar but I have a friend who does and I thought having anxiety was hell...
I do know how horrible it is to have an aversion to every drug though, I cannot take anything (and I mean anything) for my anxiety disorder, except valium that is but I get so addicted to it, it's not even worth going there. I had the wosrt reaction possible to one drug my doctor put me on and I ended up in hospital, nearly comatose
anyway, I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in this and that perhaps someone over at the bipolar discussion board could help you. It's
they might be able to help you more...
Good luck, keep smiling
ellie