Hello, I was just looking on the internet about bipolar and noticed I have more than a few symptoms and I wanted to know if you guys thought I had it

ok, I am 17 years old, and so far my mom has been diagnosed with it and sometimes I act the way she is. I can be all nice and caring one minute and then health forum the next and sometimes very violent. I wouldn't call them temper tantrums but I tend to be physically abusive and slam doors until I no longer have energy. It's just little things that set me off like if my boyfriend doesn't get out of bed when I tell him to, something stupid like that I turn outright viscious. The thing is that when my mom did things like that, she was usually drunk or something, I am sober when I do it and at the time I know what i'm doing, i'm just so angry I don't care. Sometimes I get so mad that I feel like the only relief I can get is if I shoot myself because it's too much emotion and I don't know what to do with it so I take a bunch of pills to get high because that's the only way I know how to calm down, is if I am in an interesting state of mind. I got so mad once that I took 2 oxycodone right after taking 1 earlier. Yeah 2 is not much but that caca is strong and just a few would be enough to be needing a hospital! (small frame, easily affected by the littlest dose of meds) anyway I used to be self mutilative but I stopped because my bf hated it. I have low self esteem, right now I don't even think I am smart enough to have a job because I might screw up so bad. I am afraid to wash dishes at a restaurant because I don't think I am smart enough to.. It's hard to explain. I just don't have any confidence at all and am always looking for jobs that a 3 year old could do. I just wish I could look for one based on salary and benefits no matter what the job is and just go in there and do it. I am afraid to drive because I backed up into a tree and was so upset by that that I cut myself and ever since I freak out when I get behind the wheel of a car. It doesn't help that my moms side of the family has less than satisfactory driving skills even though I don't think that is something you inherit. Maybe the skills that are required to drive but not actual driving. Anyway I day dream alot and I have delusions about people I know shrinking themselves and orbing to my house to spy on me and that I have a little crew of scientists studying me. It was so bad that I had to get dressed in the dark and take a shower in the dark for 2 years. I don't anymore but once I get out of the shower, I turn the light off to dry off and put my clothes on.

I don't know if this is enough info about me to determine if I have it or not but I was just wondering if it was something I need to get checked out.
Although I doubt I will ever be able to because my bf and his family would be forever in denial about the possibiltiy that I may have a mental problem and they keep saying "you have anger management issues and need therapy." they prob just dont want to pay for the meds but they wouldn't have to, I would pay for them. Maybe that I od on them alot would be a factor but in the long run denying me meds because of a problem like that would only make it worse in the future and then I would have to be institutionalized which would make me alot worse (i hate being bond) so I might as well blow my head off now!