Hi,
i have lupus cerebritis. I have had it for about 20yrs now. When I was in interrogator in the service, it developed. I have been receiving compensation, meds and treatement for 18yrs from the va. I am currently receiving 100% as the va tested me and found that I had brain damage from lupus. In 9/01, the va doctor took me off my meds and made me change my rheumatologist. The rheumatologist he sent me to said I had auto immune phenomenom and a pyschiatric problem. The va said they wouldn't give me my meds until I proved to them I had lupus. Traveling makes me extremely sick, but I traveled 3 1/2 hrs away to a va rheumatologist who said there was no consistent evidence that I ever had cns lupus. In these 2 1/2 yrs my lab tests showed lupus, sjogrens and thydroiditis, but the va wouldn't even treat for pain. The va now is trying to say that I am inactive from depression and I can do things, but I just don't want to. I have two outside doctors who have recommended that I be on cell cept and I am now taking mobic and mtx which I have to pay for myself. I wrote the sec of the veteran's affairs and also requested a board. I still haven't been able to tell anyone my side of this story. One doctor actually lied in my case saying that my doctor thought I should be treated for depression and that another doctor said my symptoms were more related to depression that lupus. I have confusion and cognitive problems even when I am on my meds, but when I was off my meds I was defenseless. The more I complain to the va the more they try to document me as a mental case. I don't think someone can lose the diagnosis of lupus cerebritis. Maybe it can be active or not, but you can't say that someone has a mental illness. They two can't be distinguished in many ways. You can even have depression with lupus. I don't happen to be depressed. I know I am not normal. I can live with lupus cerebritis, but if you say I have a mental illness, that my pain is not real and my lab tests don't matter, how can I stay in that reality? I know the va is short on funds, but this is no way to trim. If they don't want to give me my benefits, they should tell it like it is. I have had my eyes replaced and have had broken bones from premature osteoporis from all the prednisone the va has given me and now they are gong to deny me my illness????