Hi
my seizures are grand mal, full body convulsions. The doctors think that I have temporal lobe epilepsy, I have never had any abnormal reading on a eeg test. I have had sleep deprived eeg,mri,ct. And nothing abnormal, blood tests, heart tests and all normal. I am the only one in my family that has this.
i know that I can be aware of what is going on sometimes, it scares me to death, when I feel my body uncontrolably convulsing, and I have no control over myself. Sometimes after a lim has been paralysed. I also feel so tired that I can sleep for ages and ages. I can have up to 10 hrs sleep. One dr says I am epileptic the next says I have emotional issues. I am not stressed out or nothing.
Although my very first eeg reading when I was not on medications showed that there was severe stress waves in the 15-17 electrodes. I dont know what that meant.
The neurologist was to busy on the telephone instead of talking to me about why I am like I am all of a sudden.
Prehaps it is all anxiety and I panic and cause myself to seize.
I remember one time when I was about 12 I was on a school camp and I was in a small canoe and I tipped over. I couldnt get out I was stuck upside down underwater. I got panicked and then the staff of the camp helped me out.
I guess I get the same feeling of being stuck somewhere I cant get back from so I guess thats my dream like state, I just hate it.
I have hillucinations, visual, and I hear my name being called alot like a whisper, my eyes blur in and out of vision. I just am scared. I dont want to feel like this again.