I'm completely new to this forum, and I have to admit I have a fear about things like these, but I have to talk to someone.
I'm 27 and gave birth to a beautiful baby girl 3 months ago. Her father, a man I trusted more than anyone in the world, abandoned us a month before she was born. His excuse.... "god told him he had sinned and it was his responsibility to make it right". I was devastated when he did it. Human beings have a tendency to do horrible things to each other, but this was more than I ever expected one to do. The most insane thing about this..... He's 43 and has been unable to have children before. He wanted this child more than anything, and so we decided to go ahead and do it. This was a planned pregnancy!!
This is more than I think any person should ever have to go through. It's something i'm not sure i'll ever be able to get over. I cry almost every day. I keep focusing on the fact that I had to give birth completely alone. Then I remember that my child, this true gift from god, will never have a father.
Will I ever be able to get through this? Some days I think I will, but others are so hard to bear that I wish I could be somewhere else. Do any of you have any ideas about what I may be able to do to help myself? Thanks in advance for taking the time to read