This morning my mother and I got into a big blow out, we were both exchanging words... And I said something and she started punching the hell out of me while I was getting ready for school...And then she said when you come home you're grounded for the weekend and I have just been so tired of dealing with it because it's an everyday thing that I told her I wasnt coming home and she said what do you mean your not coming home, then she says I wont do this in fron of your borther and sister and as I was walking out the door she starts yelling..."get your ass over here"...And yelling and she kept telling me to go to her and I told her no because I was scared and she had a spatula in her hand and she kept telling me that I wasnt going to school and I told her I was and my buss was comin around the corner and my buss stoped in front of my house and my mom threw the spatuala and missed and my buss kinda sped off..I've known my buss driver for a while now and I waas crying...She told me that she was going to pick me up @ school im not going with her I cant and she also told me that whenever I came home I was dead I dont know what to do....Ever since her and her 2nd husband split up she's been so depressed but over the past year though shes been so violent, she's always yelling @ me or my younger brother and sister...She's always yelling and hitting... I will admitt that sometimes, maybe even most of time we deserve it but not all the time...And we're not damn punching bags...I am soo scared I dont know what to do...And i've always had a feeling that if she doesnt kill me she's gonna kill herself...Im so scared .. She has all these mood swings all the time she's alright one minute, tired the next, and then crazy the next, but if there's one thing she isnt that's happy she's never happy, im only 14, im in highschool...I dont know what to do..One time I was so upset on memorial day...I was goin to committ the "s" word (i dont like saying it I had a friend who has done that) but I didnt because I kept thinkin of my brother and sister...But if I leave I may never see them again.. We have different fathers and if I were to tleave i'd have to go with mine and I dont even know him .. The only thing I know is that he lives in florida I kinda wanna go but I dont wanna leave my brother in sister in that environment... Im not trying to make this look like it's all my mom it's not I cause problems tooo. But I dont deserve to be treated like that no one does...And yes I do have family here but half of them wouldnt take me in... I know my grandparents would but I cant do that to them..Because their under soo much stress cuz of my mom and with the divorce and the whole financial aid thing...And I couldnt put them under anymore stress.. I dont know what to do im soo scared...

What do I do?