Maybe It's Over......

Hey you guys! As some of ya'll know dewitt's mom told my mom about our little marriage plan. She freaked. And this was already after I had decided I didn't want to as I told nikki. Well we got into it and I ended up telling dewitt very firmly that I wasn't going anywhere and that I didn't think it was fair to do that to my mom. She is really the only one who was there for me throughout my entire pregnancy and she was the only one there when I had josh. He sounded upset so I asked him if he was alright and he's like "yeah except for the fact I won't ever be able to be with you and josh" and then I yelled at him and asked him what the hell was stopping him from coming here and he said he had to go to school there for a year while he looked for a school here and i'm like "look for a school like u said u would in december or actually look for one" he got really pissed and said he would actually look for one. Then I told him my food was here and hung up. Lol. It felt good to be a mean health forum to him for once. I think we kinda might be over, because I don't think he is ever gonna keep a stable job long enough to save up and come down here.....And i'm ok with that surprisingly......I thought I would be more upset if it ever came to this. But he has really disappointed me over the past months, and as much as I love the butthead, i'm done with it. When he starts living up to all his stupid promises he made, then maybe i'll be nice to him. He hasn't sent the paternity papers back yet so we are going to end up having to take him to court to appoint paternity and get child support....I know his mom will fight for a paternity test....And thats good.....Btu she said we are going to pay for it.....Ha.....She obviously didn't read those paternity papers.....Cuz they say that in court, if it is proven that he is the father by dna testing, he is financially responsible for the bill. Not i. Grrrrr the more I think about it the more pissed I am. Lol.

I cleaned my room today and I have a lot more room! I am so happy! I vacuumed and my floor is clean! Lol all I have left to do is straighten all my incredibly shelves and reorganize a bit........

Now, for those who don't already know.....I have been seeing camerin again. My friend kept telling me how much he wanted to see josh so I finally went with her to his house to see him. He absoloutly loves josh! It is so adorable when he holds him cuz josh sits there with an ear to ear grin on his face. He doesn't even smile at me like that very often! Lol....Maybe he did it cuz it was a new face.....I dunno it was just so cute. He wrote me a letter telling me he still loved me etc. Etc. And missed me and all this and then he made a joke about shaving his ass and blow-jobs (so romantic) lmao....He's been coming over quite a bit and he just sits here and chills with me and josh. I always thought he would hold a grudge and hate me and josh b/c I cheated on him and ended up pregnant with josh.....But here he is fallin in love with the kid.....Lol. Life is weird.....But i'm not complaining.....I have missed his hairy butt so incredibly much and I don't care if dewitt would kill me if he knew camerin touched his kid......Lol. What's weird is I constantly have people that he knows and I don't asking me if it's his kid and stuff. And they joke around and ask camerin's brother jeremy what he think's of camerin's kid....And camerin never says anything or corrects them......Kinda odd but whatever.....Those are my updates and wow was that long.....Sorry bout that! Lol......Do you guys think I am making a good decision in just leaving dewitt to come to his senses on his own and hanging with camerin again? Thanks in advance!