Q: Going Crazy
asked by:
ERICA83
on June 2nd, 2004
Active User, very eHealthy
Lol im sure noone wants to hear this but im a huge crybaby right now. I cant get a hold of my emotions. Btw, the baby is moving and ok :d but back 2 the point. I have put on alot of weight. I used to weigh like 125 like 8 months be4 I got preggy then it just added and added. I gain weight very easily and have always had a problem with it. And here I am 197 lbs and still have 2 & half more months to go and it aint all tummy . Im gaining it in my legs, butt, arms, face everywhere! I feel really disgusted and I dont want to offend anyone by sounding selfish but there is no excuse for me gaining this much. I cant blame it on being "pregnant" I have been beating myself up and the whole problem is I cant control it and it drives me nuts! I have like no self discipline. The other day my dad said I probably weigh more than him and as my aunt came to give me a kiss hello she made her face look all puffy. Making fun of mine. Then me and eric were eating at a resturaunt and there was a mirror on the side of us and I got so sick watching myself eat. Its sick I know. And to top off everything else he and I were trying to make love and I just couldnt do it. I was crying and all he was trying to do was tell me im beautiful but I felt like a whale and made him stop. Sorry guys I just had to type this out I just got done bawling my eyes out and I just had to post it. I just cant get a hold of myself. Thanks for listening though. ~ erica.
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