I met the most wonderful man 3 years ago on the internet, a man that dreams are made of, sensitive, funny, caring, affectionate, romantic, everything I thought didnt exist in one man did in this one. It was like my dreams had come true and my life was complete. I ended a previous relationship and moved my man into my home with my 3 teenage children, I said to myself "right now its my turn for some happiness", I was 35, my children practically grown so they didnt need me so much anymore. What a rollercoaster ride it turned out to be.
I sold my home and moved my family far away from my close relations, friends and more importantly I took my 2 youngest children away from their father, friends, grandparents and school, leaving my eldest 17 yr old daughter with her grandparents because she didnt want to come.
We had plans of buying a business to work together and live a happy, comfortable life.
Far from "happy ever after" what a disaster it has turned out to be.
My partner didnt work for the first 2 years of our relationship, I financially kept him, I paid he's depts , he was jealous of the attention I payed my children, wanted me all to himself, even wished my children away to my face, he played computer games all night and slept all day while I was out working. We argued a lot, sometimes about the children. My 16 yr old son has been in trouble with the police, I also discovered he spoked pot. My 13 yr old daughter got rushed to hospital after drinking too much while she was out staying over at a friends house.
Through all of this my partner was still all those things that I said at the start and I love him with all my heart.

This weekend things came to a head, we had an enormous fight about my son (who has just been arrested for stealing). My partner practically asked me to chose between him and my son.
He made me so angry the way he was talking about my son that I attacked him, so he called he's parent to come hundreds of miles to come pick him up and take him back with them.
Anyway now he is gone, when he left he asked me if we could just have a couple of weeks break and then he could come back, I said I would think about it and let him know.
I know that it is for the best that we end our relationship, better for me and my children, so I must face him and tell him its over.
I know he will be heartbroken and so am i, after everything, I still love him so much, I miss him.
This is so painful i'm finding it hard not to breakdown completely.

You might think im stupid, gulluble and living in the clouds, the your probably right, I dont think im looking for any answers by writing this, I just needed to say it.