I just don't know what to do anymore.
I've been anorexic for almost a year and
then I became stuck in between anorexia
and bulimia to just plain bulimia for a
year and 6 months. I went all the way
down to 108 pounds and then I found that I
ate so much I couldn't throw up all my
food anymore. It was so tiring and I
ended up gaining weight, 145 pounds. Now
I just don't know what to do because I
tell myself that i'm going to be healthy,
blah blah, this and that. Even when i'm
so committed I fail. I try my hardest to
eat small portions, but not until i've
finished eating I realize that I just
binged. I feel terrible and I have no
self-esteem the next day if I don't throw
it up. Nobody knows about what I am
going through. They think that I got
over it a long time ago. I don't know I
guess I just felt like I had to say
something. I had to get it out. The
point is that I eat soo much and I don't
even realize it until it's happened! Why
is this happening?? Pls help.
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KariM18
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Jan 2004 Posts: 1436 Location: Grand Blanc, Michigan
Posted: 06-01-04 01:20am
Hun I know what you mean! Its hell I
know. But u have to find strength in
yourself to quit. Im still trying to quit
as well. Ive been bulimic for just over 2
yrs. Its an awful way to live. U deserve
so much more and u deserve to be healthy.
Your more then just food and weight. I
know its hard. But basically u have to
change ur mindset. Try following a
healthy meal plan, of healthy cals. If u
have anywhere in ur mind that u want to
restrict, it will keep u in the cycle.
Its so hard to give advice because theres
really no simple answers. Do you have aol
or anything? My s/n in there is
skeaxryi629. Im 18 by the way, how old r
u
