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Cindy63
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Posts: 34
Location: Ontario
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Posted: 07-08-04 08:54am
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Purple, I will ask my doctor about it.
That doesn't sound bad at all. Maybe he
has one to loan or something. I go again
on wed. I'm still zapping this morning
and we are to go away this weekend to the
camp.
It should be good. Do some fishing and
r&r. Thank you again for your
advise.....Cindy
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Cindy63
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Posts: 34
Location: Ontario
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Posted: 07-14-04 15:40pm
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Hello everyone! I went to my doctor
today and he doesn't have a machine and
didn't even recommend one. He said the
latest thing here is magnetic therapy. I
wonder if I can find one big enough to fit
me head.
(joke) I am still zapping and today had a
headache, body pain and dizziness. He
did say there is a drug that I can take
for the zaps, but I declined. I'm hoping
they just go away soon. I have had two
depression episodes lately but I have
talked myself out of them. We really
need to keep ourselves busy. I do have
one beautiful garden. Talk to u soon,
cindy
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purple333
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Posts: 1420
Location: Sydney
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Posted: 07-15-04 02:43am
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Go to a search engine (google or yahoo as
suggestions) & type in questions like
- manufacturers of ces machines, ces
machines for hire, ces machines for rent,
ces machines.
Otherwise you might try emailing dynamind@ao
l.Com & ask them if they know of
anywhere/organization/retailer whatever
where you copuld rent/hire a ces amchine
to see if it helps you as your dr is
addicted to prescibed meds!!
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Cindy63
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
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Posts: 34
Location: Ontario
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Posted: 07-19-04 19:34pm
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Well today was a pretty good day, I don't
remember zapping at all! However I have
been plagued lately with hemherroids ugh!
I am having my second bout in as many
weeks. Man oh man I would have 10 more
kids compared to this, they really hurt.
I am still very tired and am still losing
weight. Although roids don't help. You
really must watch what you put into your
mouth. Talk to you later hope everyone is
doing great! Cindy
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Cindy63
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Posts: 34
Location: Ontario
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Posted: 07-29-04 20:41pm
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Hello everybody, not much is new here the
doctor has me on sick leave until at least
sept. I am feeling so much better most
of the time. My zaps are only sometimes
now and purple I think you are right
stress=zaps. If I am out in my garden I
don't have any. Sometimes a little dizzy
but that's about it. I am quite sure I
can not handle a stressful job again
though so what to do now. I am still
waiting for ei payments to start. It has
been a month. Scary! Just wanted to
say hello. Cindy
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purple333
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Location: Sydney
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Posted: 07-29-04 23:17pm
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Cindy,
given that stres=zaps & since you
can't spend your life in the garden I
really think you should try & get a
relaxation, meditation &/or yoga tape
or preferably a video (here you can often
borrow them from a library or a community
health service or community centre)&
try to learn these techniques - now -
while you have the time & the need as
these things take time to learn & be
able to just use when needed (at will) so
please look into these.
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Cindy63
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
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Posts: 34
Location: Ontario
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Posted: 08-23-04 15:40pm
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Hello everyone, things are going not too
bad. I am only on a nerve pill now but
some days I am still zapping a lot.
Sometimes I am depressed for a whole week
at a time, and sometimes maybe only for a
day. Today I am depressed. I don't
want to do anything and my body aches and
I am just so tired. I finally did get my
ei through. Have been trying to get
everything done before the snow flies.
Yuck! The thought of that is depressing!
Then what will I do? I won't be able
to garden. This is a weird thing that
has happened to me. Some days I will
start out working around here like crazy
and I can't stop. Then the next day I am
useless. Why do I try to do everything
in one day? Why can't I just relax? Is
it my clonazepam that is doing this to me?
It was supposed to settle me down and
help me sleep. Has my body gotten used
to it and now wants it gone? I don't
know, but I do know if I don't take it I
can get just like a bear. I only take 1
and one half .5mg. I only weigh 108 lbs.
Any ideas?
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purple333
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Posts: 1420
Location: Sydney
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Posted: 08-24-04 09:17am
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No suggestions re meds but as to winter
snows & no gardening - I suggest you
get some 9alot) of indoor plants &/or
take up something like knitting,
crocheting, sewing (hand) or some other
hobby.
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Cindy63
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
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Posts: 34
Location: Ontario
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Posted: 08-30-04 22:03pm
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Purple you are so nice and have been there
from the start of this mess. I really
want to tell you thank-you for being such
a caring and warm person.
So many people in the world are so screwed
up. I really wonder why. I want to be
somebody again, I want to be a gardener
full-time. That's what I want to do. I
don't want to deal with ei and cpp or
whatever they tell me is next. It's so
stressfull. Sept 1 I go to my Dr.
Again. Have to see what he says now. I
am still depressed and weird, still
zapping and they had better go away or I
think celexa must be a drug that no one
should ever use, ever. Is it the drug or
do you think it's just a long time to go
to get over major depressive disorder?
Still here.....Cindy
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purple333
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Posted: 08-30-04 22:48pm
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You may well end up deciding to be a
gardener full time but right now is
probably not the right time to make life
changing decisions.
As to the drugs I wish you'd look into
alternative options - ces, cbt, valerian,
etc.
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qt3
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 14 Nov 2003
Posts: 264
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Posted: 08-31-04 12:15pm
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| purple333
wrote: | you may well end up deciding
to be a gardener full time but right now
is probably not the right time to make
life changing decisions.
As to the drugs I wish you'd look into
alternative options - ces, cbt, valerian,
etc. |
as usual I agree with purple :d
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Cindy63
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
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Posts: 34
Location: Ontario
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Posted: 09-01-04 21:09pm
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I went to my Dr. Today and he has written
me back to work. I am still depressed
and mostly a basket case. The past 2
weeks have been hell. I think my Dr.
Wants me to get into some kind of work so
I can feel usefull again. And I think he
is right. I need to do something that I
feel fullfilled.
I am going to the employment resource
center tomorrow as I want to start a
business of my own... Can you guess what
it is? Gardening of course! Apparently
there is some program to help people get
back into the workforce even if it's
starting your own business. I am scared
to death but I have to start taking steps
sometime so it may as well be now. The
doctor wanted to know what a perfect life
for me would be. That was one of his
questions and I told him, to spend some
quality time with my husband, have my
daughter not snarl at me everytime I
talked to her(she's 17), have a
girlfriend, and have a job that I wanted
to do for me and gardening is definetly
what I want to do. I know you can't do
it in the winter but you can for almost 8
mos of the year. I know I can do it
because I have been doing it here all
summer. I built my own rockery and that
was my therapy. Some days I didn't do
much at all, other days I didn't stop
until the sun set. I hope they will help
or I will just do it on my own. I am
that determined...Cindy
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Cindy63
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
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Posts: 34
Location: Ontario
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Posted: 09-06-04 17:33pm
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don't know what my problem is now I have
been to the doctor and he has written me
back to work. I have signed up for a
program to have my own business and will
be taught everything I need to know. But
lately I have been very up and down and
very suicidal. Friday night I really
thought a lot about ending it all. Does
this mean i'm getting better or going for
a crap? I really let my hubby have it
and I feel like I hurt him a lot. Things
are not good there. I have been
extremely tired and irritable. I had to
have a nap today. I did start taking my
b vits again. But I feel like I am right
back where I started. I know tomorrow is
another day but these are new terrible
feelings now. I haven't been able to
garden much and today I did nothing.
Saturday and sunday weren't too bad I held
myself together but had to try hard to do
this.
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purple333
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Posts: 1420
Location: Sydney
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Posted: 09-08-04 10:36am
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Cindy,
i used to (including only a few months
ago) sit every night & sometimes all
day wishing I were dead & so on &
attacking my husband & son (mind you
if you met them that would explain some of
my reactions - they can also be wonderful)
then my daughter (16) & I were at each
others throats daily - so I do understand
& I was having multiple daily
migraines -
last migraine not lately - can't think
exactly when
last suicidal desire - last weekend -
after major disasters (physical &
emotional) & when as a result I
couldn't use my gift from god. Feelings
going again after only 2 days of using my
machine
please get a ces machine - I am as sure as
anyone can be that the suicidal stuff the
huge mood swings etc will go - not to say
it will make life perfect - especially if
2 or so days go by when you can't use the
machine or when you don't bother to use it
- like anything you have to use it or it
will not, can not work.
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qt3
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
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Posts: 264
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Posted: 09-20-04 16:10pm
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| purple333
wrote: |
please get a ces machine - I am as sure as
anyone can be that the suicidal stuff the
huge mood swings etc will go - not to say
it will make life perfect - especially if
2 or so days go by when you can't use the
machine or when you don't bother to use it
- like anything you have to use it or it
will not, can not
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cindy-
i don't know anything about ces machines
other than what purple has had to say
about them, but she gives excellent advice
and I hope you give one a try. What have
you got to lose? Like she says you have
to use it for it to have a chance to work
just like cbt or just about any other
anxiety treatment.
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Cindy63
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Posts: 34
Location: Ontario
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Posted: 09-29-04 14:06pm
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Well yesterday was my 8th wedding
anniversary and I tried to make my husband
a nice dinner and I made him a nice
emotional card. I think my marriage is
on the rocks now. We haven't had any
together time for so long and now I feel
like there is no point even trying. I
have been so depressed lately. Today I
had the day off and it started out not bad
but I just got so mad so very angry at
myself and everybody. I can't seem to
get fixed. I can't be normal whatever
that is supposed to be I can't be even i'm
all over the place. His parents gave us
a package of uncooked meat for a gift
which they had to hand deliver and ruin my
f-ing dinner and the time I had planned to
spend together with him! What is the
matter with people. He is never home so
when something special like this comes up
don't you think parents would stay the
hell away and let you have some together
time? I don't understand them, they are
so strange. Who in the hell gives meat
for an anniversary gift. To be honest I
would have preferred just the card.
Today is her birthday so do you suppose I
should find some old piece of junk from
around here for her?
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purple333
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Posts: 1420
Location: Sydney
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Posted: 09-30-04 03:26am
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While I agree that meat for an anniversary
present is weird & that they could
have at least checked before coming over I
also think that you are getting way too
uptight about everything. I'll swap my
20th anniversary for your 8th anytime - no
presents from family, no-one available to
mind son whose "gift" was to start the day
by throwing up violently - so much for the
plans we'd had for that day - which I
might add had already been changed so many
times I lost count so my husband ended up
doing his usual & buying me chocolates
- 3 boxes - went beautifully with my
diet!!!!
If you want time with your husband - join
the rest of us - that's life. But if you
actually want to get better - then stop
talking & act try cbt or a ces
machine. But remember that for a marriage
to work takes work & acceptance but
for it to fail you just have to give up.
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