New Here, Suffered For Years... Posted: 05-24-04 23:22pm
Hi everyone,
my name is melissa (mel) and i'm 20, I
have suffered with health anxiety since I
was about 5 years old. I have been
suffering with depression for 2 years now,
currently going thru a very tough
relapse-altho it feels very different to
the last time I was depressed.
This time i'm filled with a very deep and
cynical anger.
My moods swing wildly from one to another,
my boyfriend has left me-which I don't
mind really as I wanna be on my own right
now.
We have a one year old daughter and i'm
coping ok with her.
I've been on new meds (remeron) for two
weeks, and my anxiety has got out of hand
in that time.
the thing I wanted to ask was, does anyone
else feel mixed up? For example, I want
company from people one minute and the
next I don't want anyone around me. My
brain says I need help but I refuse
comfort etc.
I hate feeling this way, I feel that the
anger could make me explode!
melly
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deathtouall
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 31 May 2004 Posts: 23
Posted: 05-31-04 15:29pm
I'm 15 and all the symptoms off deprssion
I have I 'm on my own so often that I talk
to my toys (which are mostly bad guys out
of movies) and they responed to everything
I am very mature for my age which has
made me very confused about everything my
thoughts race the lot my user friends
reckon i'm wacked in the head cause I love
looking at dead people these days but I
don't think so I suffar nervous break
downs nearly all of the time but still
somehow manage to hold together out of the
hundreds of people I know my life is the
only one that is now ruled by hate its
like I don't have a choice bout what I
have in my world most of the time I live
inside me head away from reality recently
my anger eruped from me and I nearly
killed a girl
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purple333
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Dec 2003 Posts: 1420 Location: Sydney
Posted: 06-01-04 01:37am
Ok, 15 & you almost killed a girl
& you are errupting with hate &
you feel you don't have a choice about
what is in your life right now.
you do have a choice, read my replies to
your other posts, the choices good or bad
are up to you & they will decide your
future. The choices are yours.
I believe in past & future lives &
in spirits & maybe you have alot of
bad spirits around you & that is why
you love looking at dead people &
graves these days & why you think
about being better off dead in that other
place. You can deal with this - if you
choose - by asking them to leave &
asking good, happy helpful spirits to come
around you. That might be a start, but
remember since things seem pretty
entrenched it may not change instantly!!
Especially if your request is less than
convincing!!
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Haley
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 23 Feb 2004 Posts: 122
Posted: 06-01-04 21:12pm
Hi mellyuk20, I always obsessed about my
health and other stuff that made no sense.
It got so bad that I eventually got panic
disorder which stinks! I recently
finished my cbt group and weaned off drugs
and i'm feeling great now though. You owe
it to yourself to give cbt a try, it
really works wonders fast the two books we
used in my group are really good and I
would recommend them both highly: been
there, done that? Do this! By sam obitz
for anxiety and depression and mastery of
your anxiety and panic-third edition by
michelle craske and david barlow for panic
disorder.
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qt3
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 14 Nov 2003 Posts: 264
Posted: 06-04-04 21:40pm
Melly-
give cbt a shot. I like the obitz and
burns books best
the two books we
used in my group are really good and I
would recommend them both highly: been
there, done that? Do this! By sam obitz
for anxiety and depression and mastery of
your anxiety and panic-third edition by
michelle craske and david barlow for panic
disorder.