While I do take meds, I also believe that there are many other options (including natural meds etc).

I hear what you are saying but I am curious to know what you use/do to help you instead of taking meds?

My question is twofold, one it may help me or others & two I wonderwhether your family are the way they are because either they
"feel" that you're not doing anything or they don't see any improvement -& so either way they're worried. Just a thought & a question of course.

You post elsewhere that the fact that this forum changes certain words like homicide & caca etc annoys you, well I am annoyed when a person posts, gets a reply to which they reply then when I go to answer them they have deleted their original post & their reply, leaving only mine, totally out of context. Not to mention that I have wasted my time, thinking about how best to respond to their reply to my questions/comments!!

Nevertheless & in short here is my reply, you need to forget wbout your family & what they do/say/think whether it be about you or themselves & deal only with you. You are responsible for yourself, your actions & inactions so take that responsibility & make some choices, do nothing, change nothing & things will not change, do something, change things & your life will change.

Also re your comment that you "felt nothing" when your sister was homicide-e-d - everyone responds to grief, loss, anger, hurt etc differently have you considered that you were at 16 (as I recall) unable to cope with all of the emotions, so many & all at once plus what you saw going on around you for others - so you closed down in order to protect yourself because you did not know how to deal/cope with it all, it was too much & your parents etc were so busy dealing with their own grief etc that they were not there to help you. That does not mean you "felt nothing" it means well perhaps that you still haven't dealt with your feelings re what happened.

Maybe if you did deal with these emotions & your feelings of hidden(?) anger that your family forgot you at that time you would be alot happier, healthier & able to hold down a job & maintain & relationship.

Don't know why i'm doing this when I don't talk and I truly hate the entire human race and have nearly killed 1 person

You do it because deep inside you there's a pussycat just waiting to leap out & hug us all >>>>>>> either that >>>>>>>>>or because although you do not talk you do have a need to communicate with other humans >>>>>>>> or because you are still looking for someone to k ill >>>>>>>>>> or because the topic of the original (removed) post hit a cord in you. One which it hit with me & I am sure has hit with others . The point is we all (or most of us hate some or many people with a passion at times, some of us more often than others .

The real thing is do you want to chat, do you want advice, opinions, help or anything, if you do there's people here that can & do help most of the time.

Do you really hate all of us, even the ones you've never met, the babies etc?? Did you try to kill someone or was there an accident - 2 very different things but they canboth land you in tons of trouble often very unfairly.

Why on earth would I wish to communicate with other humans? No one ever listens to me nor will they ever yes I diid try to kill someone mainly cause they were annoying the living day light out of me like most people do most of my hate towards people has come from my father and the things he did to me when in primary school (now in year 10)

most people I do hate mostly american and queenslanders just mentioning them makes my skin crawl

just the other day I had to go up to the office at school to talk bout bullying in my english class the lady I was trying to talk to kept going on about controlling my behaviour and all of this other caca which had nothing to do with the topic since this has only just started to get me down these days some of me friends have noticed that I hardly ever smile or laugh at silly stupid things

tryed at lot of ways to communicate but the problem is I find it hard to trust people these days

You seem to be very troubled, perhaps with good cause, but you will soon be an adult & also only you have the real power to decide whether you want help or whether you just want to feel sorry for yourself & let everything keep on being bad for you.

One problem you are creating here for yourself is that you have posted all over the place, you have also posted either false issues about yourself & your situation or just bits & pieces which unless someone manages to find all the various posts & read them, put them together & then try & figure them all out & then get you to respond to comments, questions, suggestions etc - hell i'm lost in my own post here, that's how hard you make things, if you want help, you need to post everything relevant in one place, or post everything relevant in all places (either will work) & then maybe someone can help you.

You keep talking because you want help, but are you ready to accept it, that is the question!!

And it makes me think why would on earth would someone want to help me when all people do these days is hurt me??????????

Have I hurt you??

If not - how about giving me a chance to help??

If I have - explain, maybe I can respond & we can sort out how/why etc & overcome the problem.

:twisted: its just one of those things where I push everyone away before they hurt me not actually beign hurt.

You have one chance and thats it

Why do you hate people so much, when did this start, and why?



What is underlying the hate, what experience has set this so out of control............You dont have to answer, it wont hurt me, can cope with that, but maybe if my questions dont offend, you could look at it yourself...........If you can be bothered listening to anybody's opinion, or desire for deeper understanding of you.............We wouldnt want to set you on a hate trip............But there must have been some reason you wanted to draw attention to your state of mind, and state of being..............

He probably hates people because we are a disease on this earth. What gives us the right to trash it, kill other animals and make movies with ben affleck and julia roberts. Reality t.V. Shows our descent into hell. Look how rich that promiscuous person paris hilton is, we should hate all people. People only know two things, greed and evil. A clockwork orange is coming true to life, we are in an ultra violent society and we're just basically monkeys running around causing chaos. Even though I have no problem with chaos. Any intelligent man is going through an existential chasm right now, anyone who isn't angry is either stupid or very good drugs.

This person seems incapabe of making useful, relevant, &/or helpful comments in fact he/she has a great tendency to make comments which only lead to making a person's bad situation worse. Hightension24 is>>
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Actually, I was drunk when I type that(many typos). When you read a response from me that was posted at a bizarre time, I probably am drunk. As for useful, helpful comments, if you're on here looking for help, you've already lost the battle, buddy.

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