From the adoption forum:
have you ever seen a news report about a missing child, where they interview the child's parents? Sometimes the parents say something like, "nothing is harder than not knowing. Whatever has happened, I just want to know."
it is very hard knowing that your child, alive when last seen, is somewhere out there in the world, and that you have no control whatsoever over whether your child is safe. Your child may be alive or dead; your child may be happy and thriving, or suffering from cancer, or being tortured in an abusive household. You have no idea. You probably never will. There is never, ever any closure or any peace.
If this was all, it would probably still be preferable to say, "my child is probably alive," than to say, "my child is definitely dead."
the thing is, I do not view abortion as the killing of a child. I do not believe that an embryo is a child. I do not believe that abortion is an "alternative" to adoption. I don't see that as a valid comparison. To me, adoption is an alternative to parenting. Abortion is an alternative to pregnancy. When I terminated my pregnancy, I no longer wondered what happened to the child I never had. I did not lay awake nights wondering if that fetus, that potential life, was suffering. I knew it was not. And so I was at peace with this decision in a way I have never been with adoption. There was certainly no joy in it. An unwanted pregnancy is always regrettable. I wish it hadn't happened. And I don't regret placing my first child. I'm glad I did. And for anyone who believes that a fetus is a child, I would definitely never recommend abortion. Understandably, if that is your belief, there is no choice but to carry the child to term and give birth to it, whether or not you are able to raise it.