I've known I have mental problems almost
my entire life.
I'm flat out insane and I know it!
Problem is I like it.
I took a personality disorder test, and I
know that I have the paranoid disorder,
the narcissistic disorder, anti-social
disorder, schizotypal disorder. All of
those!
Here's the results::
disorder | rating
paranoid: very high
schizoid: moderate
schizotypal: high
antisocial: high
borderline: moderate
histrionic: moderate
narcissistic: high
avoidant: high
dependent: moderate
obsessive-compulsive: high
you see these commercials for drugs, and
the side effects they have scare the hell
out of me.
My biggest problem is that I am severely
unable to assume the emotional
responsibilities in society.
Later........
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purple333
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Dec 2003 Posts: 1420 Location: Sydney
Stop Your World But Do Not Get Off!! Posted: 05-22-04 14:42pm
Well I just read your post (& I have
read a couple of others you've put on
other people's posts!!) & I do not
believe that you're crazy or incapable of
having a relationship or a job!!
I am not a dr, just a person, mother,
wife, former counsellor (child, adult,
family etc) mistrustful in the extreme of
regular medicine & drs, protestant by
birth but panentheist by choice,
intelligent, with 2 highly intelligent
children & mentally a mess.
Your post reminded me of several things
asi read it: the student dr who diagnoses
himself with each illness/disease (mental
& physical) as he studies it; the
person who is diagnosed by a
dr/family/teacher with the latest "in"
thing (currently add/adhd), the extremely
bright person who develops in a lopsided
way - myself & both my kids & many
exceptionally bright people fall into this
category. Etc etc.
You know nearly everyone can be diagnosed
with tonnes of disorders (especially
mental) if we try, we all fit several at
one time or often, that doesn't make it
true & even if true there is still the
matter of degree (my son was severely
asthmatic from 2 till 7 & now seems to
have outgrown it by 9 - so degree) then
there's what we choose to deal with &
what we choose to live with & what we
choose to ignore/or can't ignore.
Please don't misunderstand I am not saying
that you're imagining everything or that
nothing is wrong I am just questioning the
degree of each problem & the reality
of how much each actually has to impact on
your life. I used to be able to go into
woods now if I get near a plant I am just
about incapable of breathing the fear is
so great, yet I have no idea what happened
only that it is getting worse (so for me
the answer on this one is to avoid plants
& definitely bush!!). Also with jobs
& with relationships we (humans!!)
often set ourselves up to fail (i believe
that it won't work & guess what, it
doesn't, we sabotage ourselves - not
consciously )
so my advice to you is to think now while
you are young enough, what can I do to
change the way things have been happening
- there is a person on here "qt3" who
recommends cbt (cognitive behaviour
therapy) & a book by sam obitz, you
might want to check that out. Also unless
I am very much mistaken you are very
intelligent & as you yourself said
creative (but like so many intelligent
people you sabotage yourself by expecting
the impossible, perfection & nothing
is perfect - what is perfect anyway, so
stop sabotaging & start writing,
painting, whatever & selling before
you throw it out!!
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glaston
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 21 May 2004 Posts: 18 Location: US, IL
Posted: 05-22-04 21:07pm
Purple, thank you!
It's this sort of understanding that I
think I need to hear!
Normally, when I try to talk about these
things with people I get blank stares or
half baked responses.
Although I don't know you, but based on
what i've read so far you seem to be a
wonderful understanding person.
Your children are extremely lucky to have
you as a mother!
Thanks again...
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purple333
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Dec 2003 Posts: 1420 Location: Sydney
Posted: 05-23-04 10:16am
Thanks for the thanks but what I want to
see is you taking some positive action!!
ok!!
)
ok!!