I know ya'll are tired of hearing about it....But I serioulsy feel like I felt when I was living here be4 and raven and I couldnt see eachother.....He lives on the other side of town this is a big town and he walks to and from work which is like between our houses well tonite he was supposed to come over called me from a pay phone and told me his feet were killing him from being at work all day and I dont blame him so hes not coming over.........U all im sooo sooo used to living w/ him and sleeping next to him having him holding me in the middle of the night and I know river misses him b/c everynight raven would give him his bath his evening bottle and put him to sleep I kno river misses that doesnt kno wats goin on b/c the whole time I do it he is fussing and crying the whole time then I start crying......Girls im falling apart im trying to stay together and be strong but I cant anymore I need to fall apart I need him he isnt just my boyfriend hes my best friend im sooo soo in love w/ him and I know he feels the same about me its just it seems like he doesnt understand how bad I really need him....I just got into two fights w/ my parents about him tonite im sooo tired of this and it hasnt even been a week im sooo scared im going to go into depression and I dont want that I need out and I dont know where to go or what to do with myself anymore I cant do this for much longer im sitting here crying my eyes ive never been sooo lost in my life I just look at lil river and cry b/c I kno he misses his daddy soo much and theres nothing I can really do about it....He is my world I love that lil boy to pieces I want him to be happy but he is missing him too idk what to do....Girls help me please please please!!!!!