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Q: How Do I Get the Strength to Turn Away?
asked by: chrysta1818 on May 17th, 2004
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Im chrysta and im 18.Ive been with my boyfriend for 2 years now and I just dont have the strength to turn my back on him.I recently miscarried the baby that I was carrying only a few days after he left me.When we first met he was like any other partner-caring,loving and attentive and as time went on he became more dominant,not letting me go out alone or anything.When I became pregnant he was happy at first and the he changed his mind and left me telling me that he didnt want to be tied to me forever.He doesnt know about my miscarriage yet because I know he will think im a failure and I cant deal with that Sad I just cant forget him and if he came back now I would forgive him and carry on as normal even though the stress he put me under may have caused me to loose our baby Sad what is wrong with me? Why I cant I just start again and forget about him? I am drawn to him even though he is so horrible to me at times.Please help me and give me the advice I need to forget him once and for al Sad
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BbyBlu0602
replied on May 18th, 2004
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Chrysta, I would seriously sit down and imagine how your future would be if you two got married. He would continue to treat you horribly and it would probably get even worse after you two were married, because he would feel like he has you trapped and that you wont leave no matter what he does. Those feelings that you are feeling right now are natural. It's because you're still in love with the old him...That sweet & caring him. You aren't in love with this "new" him though....You're just clinging on hoping that the "old" him might return. In reality it probably never will though. Once you've been with someone for a long time...Enough to get to know them, you start to see their true colors. It might be hard, but it is time to move on. You deserve a lot better. You are a wonderful person and you deserve the best, chrysta. Forget about that loser and find yourself a real man!


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chrysta1818
replied on May 18th, 2004
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You are so right-i love him for what I remember he was like-everytime he's horrible to me,i think of how he was in the beginning and think he will go back to the way he was one day.Thank you so much for your advice-i think I will track him down later and tell him that even though he finished me,its his last chance because I dont ever want him back again (he's left me before & I always take him back).And im going to tell him about the baby but thats going to be so so hard Crying or Very sad
chrysta
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BbyBlu0602
replied on May 19th, 2004
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I went through the same thing with my ex-boyfriend and then I realized exactly what I told you in that last post. So I know how hard it is. Things will get better tho. Just don't fall for his lies.


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chrysta1818
replied on May 19th, 2004
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Thanks blu,
i spoke to him and basically told him that im taking no more caca from him which he laughed at.I then told him about the baby (i had to tell him cos he didnt bother to ask how I was) and he said that I was a failure because I couldnt even look after my baby inside me.This hurt me but I didnt get upset I just told him he was pathetic because any real man would have protected his woman and been there for her.When I turned my back to leave,i saw tears in his eyes and I knew he felt bad about our baby Sad so maybe he isnt 100% evil but I still dont want to be with him.He tried to call after me but I dont think I can be with him again-its too much.Thanks again
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phil dennison
replied on August 19th, 2004
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Like Mother Like Daughter.
Give that man a 2nd chance. Dont you realise thats who you really are? Dont you realise thats what you'll do? You will live a whole life living this way. Thats just you. You won't change. Get used to it. You'll start drinking , drugs or somthing your still a child right now and your dealing with all these adult responsibilites. If you want to know what your future will look like look at your parnets. You'll wind up just like them.The only chance for you to have a good life is you do not under any circumstances no way no how want to think like your parnets.Realize they have messed you up. Good luck you'll need it. Twisted Evil
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C-rose
replied on September 8th, 2004
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You Have Your Whole Life Ahead of You.
Whats up chrysta? I'm crystal or c-rose. I went through the same situation as you at 18. I'm now 25 . You might feel like it is the end of the world. But it's not. You don't wanna be with someone like him anyways.
It wasn't meant to be. Being pregnant is sometimes stressfull.( i'm pregnant right now) the guy i'm with wanted me to get pregnant so bad just to lock me down. He was so nice before I got pregnant now he's acting like a jerk. Trying to walk all over me.He's on a power trip thinking I have to do what ever he wants. Anyways what i'm trying to say is be careful who you sleep with, get to know him,use protection. Sometimes men aren't who you think they are sort of like wolves in sheeps clothing.
Things will get better . Don't look back on the past move forward and keep your head up!













































































Aren't who you think they are,sort of like wolves in sheeps clothing.
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