I need to vent.. Im getting upset...Again.. I just feel so out of it!! I am starting to feel like im not going to be enough for my son.. And that he deserves better like maybe a home where they were ready in their lives, prepared finanically and everything ya know? I mean I work full time , make decent money, I work for gm service parts center.. I am busting my health question for my son but I feel like its never enough. And I feel bad because I know he most likely wont have a good father. I just feel bad..Ive heard its normal to feel like this during pregnancy sometimes? But I hate it. I hate feeling like this.
Also..I feel like I miss being a teenager ya know? Like goin out, the partying, etc etc. I know having my son will be such more of a blessing tho.. But sometimes it gets to my head.Last night I went to a wedding and reception and there were so many young guys there, you know ages 20-25 range especially and b4, I would have no problem talking to the guys and wouldve met some or 1 ya know? But last nite I just thought the whole time ''why would they be interested in me when theres all these other girls my age that arent pregnant?" and I also felt stupid like I always do, bein the preg girl at the party. So I only danced a little bit and felt stupid doing it the whole time. My parents kept asking me why I looked so down and that a reception is supposed to be fun. (it was my cousins reception) what is wrong with me? I dont wanna become a gloomy-depressed person! Maybe its just a normal stage we go through.. Thanks~