I want to die I really want to die....I have lost my baby.....Sorry I have not been on in awhile but tons has happened and i'll never be the same........
I was at rickys apartment when my dad came over and he was pounding on the door yelling stuff saying he was going to have ricky aressted because I am underage hes 19 and I am 17 , he yelled to let him in and we refused but he demanded and then I yelled that if he calmed down I would let him in but he couldn't yell any more.... So he did and when he came in he was all calm and red faced and I said" daddy this is my choice if you and mom don't want me to have this baby then I will live with ricky but it would be much easier with your support... He started screaming again and then he started swinging at ricky I yelled and screamed and told him to get out and he smaked me across the face I was so shocked I started crying and then ricky just started attacking him I opened the door to walk out and yell for someone to call the cops (rickys phone got disconnected the other day) and they both came charging towards me I tried to move out of the way but I couldn't they pushed me to the ground and they landed on me.. Ricky started screaming he was so scared for the baby and me he told my dad to f-ing leave or else he would regret it and so my dad got up told me he never wanted to speak to either of us again and stormed away ricky helped me into the house and I had a huge bruise starting from my ankle to my hip and it hurt so bad the bruise was from the way I slid across the ground at first my stomach hurt really bad but after about 30 minutes it stopped I went to bed and I thought everything was fine but the next morning I woke up and the bed was full of blood I started screaming which woke ricky up an when he seen all the blood he ran to the neighbors and called 911 the ambulance came and on the way to the hospital the medics told me I lost my baby I started screaming and crying.. I have endured all this pain and caca from my parents and for what nothing absolutely nothing no baby no parents just ricky who is so torn up that he can't even speak to me he thinks that it is all his fault..... When my mom came to see me in the hospital I could hear her fighting with my dad in the hall she told him not to come in the room she walked in and she was like oh honey i'm so sorry but you know it was for the best what were you and that da mn boytoy of yours going to do with a baby anyways? You couldn't raise a child and he would have killed it...I can't believe this I feel so empty inside there is no little life inside of me anymore I wanted my baby me and ricky would have been fine... I don't know what to do I can't handle this

just to let everyone know I won't be back here any longer i'm not pregnant so I don't need your advice but thank you all for your help in the beginning ......My baby my baby......