I truly understand what you are going through, I to was once a victim of verbal abuse, and even though I hated him at the times he was abusive, I couldnt imagine my life with out him, I loved him so much to the point I married him and had a child, and given time the verbal abuse was now turning to physical abuse and it got very bad at times, I had broken bones, etc I still loved him and thought well if I try something different it will get better, I always made excuses as to why he was like this, no one ever knew, id put a smile on my face and act as though everything were perfect, and see he was smart he never left bruises where my family or people could see, I was living this horrible nightmare for 5 years, finally ive had enough my last beating was it, and seeing the horror on my sons face was it, its been 13 years and I can remember it as if it were yesterday, physical abuse is one thing at least the bruises and broken bones healed, but the horrible verbal abuse never goes away, and it can screw you up big time, if hes hurting you now ask yourself is he really worth it, you deserve so much better, if someone tells you they love you but yet can be so cruel as to say hurtfull things and make you feel so belittled and angry, then they dont really love you, love is not suppose to hurt, , and no matter what its never your fault, you are not to blame for someone elses problems, I wish you luck and I really hope things work out for you, there is someone out there who will treat you with respect and give you the love you deserve,