1. Psychological counseling can be very helpful for those that would seek injury to others by wishing the others to suffer. While your disease may be frustrating to you, it is not the fault of the doctors or nurses treating you that you have the disease. If pain medications do not work, then fine...do something else. Obviously you have tried narcotic pain medications and they have failed.
2. You really should get a better grip on what the medical diagnosis is in your case. To say you will have surgery and have no idea what surgery or on what level (L3-5???- that is two separate levels...what surgery is planned for each level) is quite inadequate preparation for having a spine surgery. You need to be more aggressive, find out exactly what surgery is planned, and look up the risk/benefits on the internet. It is foolish to have spine surgery without being fully informed about all the ramifications regarding the surgerical procedure.

No, I havent been given narcotic pain relievers. They will only give me certain "things" and NOTHING that works! I dont think that I need counseling because I wish them to feel what I feel. That is weak! I need counseling because I am crazy!

Hi
I sure hope and pray you find some relief

Have you considered acupuncture/seeing an acupuncturist? Many people have had success with this. It may be worth looking into. I don't know where you live, but hopefully it is in an area where this is accessible.

Also, you can try some simple exercises, if possible:
Lie on your back on a soft clean floor and relax. Then, very gently pulling your navel towrd the spine, bend your knees placing the backs of your heels next to your buttocks. Slowly raise your knees toward your chest one at a time. Once the are both up and together, lead with the knees and very gently rotate them in circles to lightly massage the lumbar region on the floor (on soft carpet or rug).
Use circles as large or as small as is comfortable for you so that you can massage the area gently. Dont' overdo and go really, really slowly. You can also just lie there with your back to the floor and knees up without doing the circles if that feels good or helps.
Come out of this the way you went in, lowering heels to the floor one knee at a time and then sliding the legs out one at a time to straight with your navel pressed toward your backbone. And remember to breathe relaxed and fully, through your nose preferably. This is a yoga type exercise.

Re sleeping:
Unless you have extremely low blood pressure (which I doubt) , you can, for a safe, non-addictive, natural sleep aid take melatonin. It is non-prescription (OTC) and is effective. Melatonin is a naturally occuring hormone and is safe to take per following directions- you should begin with very modest doses at first. I think the recommended is @ 3 mg to start. This seems to put me out for at least 6 hours. But I never feel groggy or drugged. Lots of jet lagged celebs use it.
Melatonin is also very good for you. It is a powerful antioxidant, the only one which reaches into the mitochondria, the power house or energy maker of the cell.

Best wishes and Good Luck,
Sally

Unless there is a history of substance abuse of alcohol, illegal drugs, or narcotics, most pain physicians will treat patients in severe pain in which there are no other alternatives with narcotics. Seek a pain physician. Also seek counseling for suggesting it is appropriate that the physicians treating you should suffer in pain.

Sometimes, it's true, narcotics are the last resort.
But all other options deserve investigation first.

I think the counseling recommendation might be appropriate in some regard possibly, but not with regard to Ashover's statement. It is very common for patients to express these kinds of sentiments when they feel that no one is really helping them, or they feel that no one is really listening and they aren't getting results. I know of doctors who in residency training tell their student doctors that he wished they could feel all these diseases and injuries briefly so that they could develop a deeper sense of compassion for their patients. I think what Ashover might be feeling has something to do with needing compassion on a deeper level, which will inspire deeper and more effective healing ultimatley. His sentiments are completely normal under the circumstances.

And to be honest, a lot of doctors are money and surgery happy. There's a huge medical industry out there, and it's victims are legion.
I don't want to discourage people from seeking trained professional medical guidance. It is indispensable. But ... in light of the fact that I don't, none of us here do, know all this persons particulars, we are in the dark largely... albeit, well meaning.

I did see a medical person following an accident years ago for chronic pain. It was at the Sister Kenny Insistute in Minneapolis. My doctor, a neurologist, suggested biofeedback treatments - sounded a bit esoteric to me, but I did get something out of it. Really, the thing that worked for me was yoga. If you find a good and qualified teacher, it gives you some control over your situation, and it seems like a lot of these types of issues have to do with feeling powerless.

"Normal" sentiments of frustration of people who suffer are fine but when they begin to wish harm on others because they perceive others will not help them, this passes from normal to quite abnormal. Anger management is an excellent approach to reduction in hostilities that would induce physical harm on other human beings, regardless of their degree or title. Yoga is indeed an excellent stress reduction technique and can perhaps reduce some negative emotions that ultimately helps with pain control.