Please take good care of yourself and your babies by staying out of trouble. If the kids are your number one and you'd die for them, then give up the troublemakin' darlin, else you are lying to yourself. The kids need you, they don't need you hurt or in jail. And since dad isn't around ... who else have they got?
And I hope you can work things out with your love life. Love doesn't bloom when lying to the beloved. Samantha, the truth shall set you free, ever hear that before?
You can turn this around just by making the right decisions.
I know you can find happiness and heal. We choose our own destiny. Choose wisely.
Take care