Manic depression, Psychosis and Scizophrenia Posted: 02-24-08 16:13pm
I have Manic depression, Psychosis and
Scizophrenia. I have recently been
diagnosed with a MASSIVE RUPTURED DISK AND
"many degenerating disks" in my lower
back. I take Paxil CR, Xanax and I WAS
taking geodon. I had to quit taking that
because it made me urinate myself and my
bed every single night.
I have become more and more depressed each
and every day. I have lost my job, my car
is being repossessed and I am being forced
to move out of my house and into my
grandmothers apartment. I am 35. The only
time that I am happy or something close to
or resembling happy or when I dont feelk
suicidal is when I am with my girlfriend
or asleep. However, I feel as though all
of my conditions are driving or pushing
her away! I dont know what to do. I want
to die all the time and yet I cant do it!
If I lose her, I will lose everything!!
What can I do? I have NEVER felt this
depressed or alone, yet this is the first
time in my life when I have been in a
relationship like trhis, with someone that
I TRULY and DEEPLY LOVE!!
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Posted: 02-25-08 09:24am
Does she know about your problems? How
does she react to it?
A lot of times, I make assumptions (and
yes, even crazy conspiracy thaughts) of
what others are thinking/saying about me.
These are usually just my mind playing
tricks on me.
Talk to her and find out what her feelings
are. She might feel just as helpless as
you do and would just want you to get
better.
I truely hope you and your girlfriend wil
remain happy together. It's hard not
having someone who understands and
supports you.
This is a life long "problem" and
medication can only do so much...It takes
a strong person not to act on one's urge
to kill one self...it takes even a
stronger one to understand and be
supportive of you through thick and thin.
Let her know how much she means to you and
how much you appreciate her support and
understanding. Love is the only thing in
this life worth living for...
