The truth of the matter is that I can’t take it anymore. The nausea I experience is more or less permanent. I ache all over, I’m tired most of the day. What I have people just cannot understand, as on a decent day, I appear “normal”. I must stress that what I have is so disabling I can’t quite believe it myself.
When I use the word “nauseated”, people, doctors, just anyone doesn’t seem to grasp how it is far more than just feeling a little queasy. What I feel is the nausea people have just the second before they are about to throw up. My muscles are pushing this vomit up that doesn’t exist in my body. I sweat, I gasp for air, I feel terribly faint. So all your “normal situations” in life become impossible tasks. I can be in a shop and if it all kicks off I have to run out to a "safe place". But even then it doesn't go away, it may calm down a little.
But since April2006 it is as if I’ve had a permanent vomiting bug. I have felt ill all day, all night every day with very few good days. I can’t go on holiday, I’m unable to work. My life is a misery and I’m getting to a stage where I would like it to end. I have tried countless therapies, tablets, pushing myself methods and nothing has even helped 1%. Instead, I just feel worse, day-by-day. The doctors haven’t helped much, they have given up on me.
I haven't been checked out for anything physical though. One or two blood tests, which we normal. But sometimes if feel likes it physical. Because if it wasn't for the constant nauseated feeling I experience, I wouldn't feel anxious!
What to do! Thanks