im in my mid 20's and was heavily into drugs when i was younger and this led to severe paranoia, so much that i thought everyone was against me, even my friends and family. i have done many things to escape this paranoia, chaned numerous jobs and i even joined the army but this paranoia still follows me. i go through stages, for sometime i can be fine and then someone will say something and it will set it off again and it gets worse evertime. its been many years now and i feel that i havent progressed in life, i feel that i have been left behind with society. people say that they are enjoying life, i havent enjoyed my life for 1 second since i starting taking drugs which was when i was 18. this paranoia has really effected my life. sometimes i feel that im in a trueman show and that the whole world is wating for me to do something and because of this i dont speak or move or do anything just to see if something happens. after many years of thinking and paranoia always on my shoulder, i think i have narrowed it down.
do we all have cars? and are there levels or stages to get to? the levels which i think are 1-5. i say this becasue i have heard many conversations between persons, for example i specifically remember a girl saying to a boy "are you going to take me out in your car" and the boy saying "i dont have enough petrol" and then the girl saying "you aint that big". to me it sounds like that we all have cars (human traffic) whatever that means and that we progress through life chasing cars to get to level 5. abit more on cars, another time. somone said to me are you taking your car in town and i said no im going drinking and then he said you know what i mean. NO I DONT KNOW WHAT U MEAN!!!! PLEASE HELP ME.