Last June I got really ill and couldn't eat, I lost a lot of weight and ever since i've been obsessed with losing weight and restricting (Before this I always had a bad body image and had dieted but never to this extent).I'm 17 years old and i'm trying hard to deal with my ED without worrying those who care about me but it's not getting any easier.

It was all ok at first but since about November it's been spiraling out of control, i've made myself sick a few times but i'm mostly just restricting. I'm not particularly thin or fat (height and weight removed by tinkinink84) but I just can't accept my body as it is.

I spend my day hungry and feeling completely miserable, wishing I could eat like everyone else and not feel like everyone was judging me and calling me fat. My friends know I don't eat and just sort of accept it, I can't talk to them because I don't want them to think i'm weak and pathetic because i've always been the strong one in our group who never crys and looks after other people. I'm also worried that they'll think I want attention, one of them has said this in the past.

I get really bad headaches, bad skin, chest pains, dizziness, fatigue, blue nail beds, insomnia, mood swings and generally only have a period once every 2 or 3 months. Some times I don't allow myself to sleep until i've done hours of exercise and other times I have to concentrate really hard on not being sick after i've eaten because I feel so fat.

Next year i'm going to university, I know it will get worse, I really need any help you can give me.