Hi there. I started having severe panic attacks about 25 years ago. The first one happened on the sf bay bridge. I haven't been over a bridge since. Over the years things have gotten worse. I now only drive surface streets. I've been to countless doctors, psychiatrists, neurologists, etc. I now have no insurance. My last doctor prescribed a small amount (10 tabs, .25 mg) of alprazolam for a trip I was taking many years ago. The stuff was like magic. It really helped. Since then she switched me to zoloft which also helped quite a bit, but the sexual side effects caused me to put an end to that after about a year.

I also have trouble sleeping through the night. I noticed that a half a tab of the xanax gave me a very restful nights sleep with no morning hangover.

Here's the problem.... Xanax helped me so well in the sleeping and anxiety department. I've got an extremely un-additive personality. But she will not prescribe these for me again. Instead we go through this list of various other drugs for my sleeping. None of which work at all or have horrible side effects (semi-painful erection all night... Not as wonderful as it may seem).

About a year and a half ago I bought 30 2mg tabs of alprazolam on the web. I've been cutting the tabs in 1/8's or 1/4's and using them for the occasional time where i've had a series of bad nights and had to have a good nights sleep. These 30 tabs have lasted all this time. I have 1.5 tabs left and I don't want to buy online. For one thing they are about 8 times the price, and there are too many shady sites on the market now. I can no longer find the company on the label of my bottle. Probably shut down...

Any words of wisdom out there?