trying to end cocaine addiction Posted: 02-17-08 21:26pm
Hi I am turning 30 this week, I want to
quit coke. Even as I write that
statement, I get that little voice in my
head saying- quit forever?? I hate that
voice. I have been doing coke for it
seems about 8 years now. I used to do it
like 4 times a week, by myself, get crazy
paranoid, up till all hours. Fighting
depression, I lied to everyone. I quit
for one month, but then started again.
This time on the weekends a bump here or
there when I was drinking. This "casual"
use has gone on for the last year and a
half. I justified to myself because I had
been so much worse in the past, and now it
was just a little here and there. I live
in a party city and I bartend at a big
nightclub, so you can imagine how easy it
is, coke flows in this city like water.
Sometimes it seems that everyone does
coke. It's crazy. I can't quit
bartending right now, it is my source of
income and it pays very well. I am going
back to school, I have plans on moving
because the me that I love doesn't like
all this craziness. The crazy partier
that I turn into sometimes... I really
don't like myself when I'm like that. I
do love myself, but sometimes I think how
could I and do this to my body? Yet, the
drug addict overcomes me at times. I
finally realized that I am a drug addict,
yet I'm a little unsure how to totally
stop. I have many friends that do not
use, most of the time when I am with them,
I don't use either... but other times I
just hide it. I try doing one day at a
time, just seems like once a week I have
been messing up. I started going to
church, but I never seem to wake up in
time, seeing I bartend saturday nights
till like 6am. I thinking maybe to start
going to NA meetings?? Should I get a
sponser, how does that work?? Is there
someone that I can be doing with my
nutrition to help the depression and all
the damage I have done to my brain. What
scares me is that I will die if I do not
stop this. Cocaine and drugs killed my
good good friend already. I have always
been a very smart girl, yet this way of
life is just so so stupid. Can anyone
give some advice??
peace
angie
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bbfeet9
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 Feb 2008 Posts: 62 Location: ,
I know... Posted: 02-21-08 09:47am
Angie..My 26 year old daughter is an
addict. I can give you so much advice that
your head will spin. I have talked and
talked and preached and cried and begged
my child to change. She has not. Tried
rehab, jail, intervention.. and so it
goes. You have to want to stop, that is
the first step. Check out rehabs, though
you will have to de-tox first. I am so
tired of crying and worrying all the time.
See, this is what happens to the familys
of addicts. Who is the victim here? I get
so mad at her when it's all me, me, me,
me,(referring to her) What about me? I
can't stand it. I am watching my child
kill herself. I can't stop it. Please
smarten up. Get a grip on your life and
fix it. It would kill your mom and dad if
they had to look down at you in a coffin.
You can't be that unsure on how to stop.
Pick up the phone and call a treatment
center. If you want to be scared, PM me. I
can tell you some stories that will scare
the crap out of you. Been there, still
there. STOP, before it stops you.
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CarolDiane
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Posted: 02-26-08 09:10am
First off do you really want to quit? I
pray so.
Not a fun trip. Stay in bed, wrap yourself
you in blankets and go cold turkey for 3
days. I takes that long to get out of your
system. Then stay away from the crap.
Only other alternative is rehab.
Good Luck,
Carrie
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Raene
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 19 Jan 2007 Posts: 37 Location: ON, Canada
Question... Posted: 03-09-08 22:55pm
Ok so someone I know has been off of coke
for approx. 3 months, but he's getting
these killer stomach aches, on and off.
When he first quit he noticed that his
stomach would flip, and that's when the
pain started. We've associated it as a
symptom of withdrawal, but aren't sure...
After 3 months, do you still go through
that?? Any help would be really
appreciated, Thanks and good luck!!
