I am glad you are home Homer. Your birds and dogs were probably wondering where Daddy was! It is amazing how animals depend and count on our presence. Even this little feral cat shows himself, like, here I am Mommy. I have decided to call him Jade (if he is a male? I will most likely never know). But, the cat along with some cottontail rabbits who always seem to know which room I am in, are a comfort to me. I can be on the computer, the cat is outside warming himself in the sun. I wake up and the rabbits are outside my window. We do give off living energy.

Homer, you take care of that arm. We send you our love and prayers. You were like a little boy, so full of excitement and in the moment being back in San Francisco. I am really glad you could be with your brother. Did you get to Zuni Cafe?

Thanks Mson, I am having a nice young man come out tomorrow to check that out upstairs and put in new sealant under the door jams of the french doors. Then, of course, the window people are flying down a team to do a controlled water testing so they will know how to proceed.

Please pray for me that it can be resolved. I miss my husband. He always took care of everything. I feel I have done really well. This is the first time it has given me pause at my own inability to hold things totally together. God loves me and I will make it. I know that I will.

Life certainly has it's challenges for us, doesn't it? Be it physical, emotional, spiritual, relationships or your living environment - we are going to get tested. Sometimes, I have to remember that I am not the one here who can do all this alone. I don't have to. A few times in my life when things got really bad for me, I said, I can't do this alone. I can't carry this burden alone. My Godmother told me to take my burdens and lay them at the foot of the cross. Christ died for me. He wiped my slate clean by his sacrifice. To just imagine the price he paid for me and all of us.

Well, more later, you dear ones. You are loved and above all else you are able to love others! That is the most precious and amazing gift of all.

Chicken Fajitas! I totally love them. Made salmon last night cooked over my almond wood with our olive oil, garlic, parsley and lemon juice. YUMMY!

Take care dear friends.

Have to have lunch and then finish cleaning up that old wood from the Viognier vineyard.

Love,

Your friend,

Bobbie

I have just re-checked what forum this is, believe it or not it is titled...ehealth forum.

So, well what I'm trying to say is, um, er, does that mean that the postings are presumed to be about...oh, never mind.

Bobbie...yep, got to Zuni...I had actually been there and didn't know it!!!! I had the chicken with veg....it was awesome...yum yum yum...thanks for the reminder ...I will write more when I am physically able...xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo!!!!!

Thanks for passing mbae.

Who do not understand that health in mind and body includes humanity and the ability to reach out, touch, communicate with each other, then it will be a new day for you when you come to realize that fact. It is what I firmly believe.

Homer and Mson are my friends because they help me get through my days and my nights. They care for me. I care for them.

eHealth Forum is about the spiritual, human caring of a person as much as it is about the healing of a human ailment. Take a person away from the human element of love and family, they will just leave. Period.

Must be why people like Homer and Mson just keep going on and keep getting stronger. I believe it is called L O V E.

Great News!!!! I am so glad for you that you got to San Francisco and could be with your brother. Love is love, blood is blood. And, I believe that the bond is growing stronger between the two of you when he sees your humanity and love.

And, I feel happy you made it to Zuni. The chicken is beyond the best Homer!

Just wanted to check in to tell you that you are loved beyond measure, but, of course you know that.

Take care,

Bobbie

Bobbie, I am glad things are moving along in the house department. I'll keep praying for you and I noticed you said the young man coming over is also NICE! I am sorry that your husband is not there physically to lend a hand but in reality, he is always there. I liked what you said above about health. You are a good writer. One can feel you while reading. Keep it up. Thanks for the love. It is real.

This morning I woke up at 11:00am. I hope this stops soon. I was having breakfast at noon. Cereal and tea. I did laundry, folded and put away. I skipped rope, got ready and went for my walk to the labyrinth. From there I went work at the club. Came home and visited with our neighbours. They were here. It is 9:50pm. Dinner was meatloaf.

Medication, dishes, shower then bed.

Homerx, what did the doctor say about your arm?

That scotch malt is not for me. I was up in the wee hours of the morning getting sick. Didn't sit well with my medication. I should stick to beer or a glass of wine.

Got out of bed at 10:30am. Half an hour earlier than yesterday. Did my meditation, wore my robe, checked my emails and got two family emails. From my sister in Kenya and my sister in law in China. Always nice to hear from people in the family.

I plan on having ginger ale to sooth my belly.

My DH has gone through the worst of his cold.

More as the day goes mbae. It is 11:15am. I better get off this robe.

Have a good day.

Mson, You poor sweet baby.. I know what you mean, I can not drink at all any more and I used to love a cocktail or two...or three.. . Now if I drink anything at all its a glass of wine or a bear and only one ...maybe two but I really very rarely want any kind of alcohol at all.(maybe a glass of Bobbies wine )
Yes, I live off of ginger ale. With all the pills I take I drink lots of ginger ale and tea and apple sider. and of course a J if I am nauseous and cant eat..

What is DH?
I hope this finds you feeling better...

Is to work throughout the day and get to the good part when I can check out your messages.

It has suddenly turned cold here too and my little babies are in bud break. They will be fine, Mommy was out there today giving them strength and encouragement.

Homer, did you get your arm taken care of? You are such a sweetheart, kind and good, honest and don't hurt other's with mean comments. That is one of the reasons I have always really liked you. Keep up your good work.

Mson, you are doing great with your exercise program, eating well and just being in the moment with the people you choose to be with. That is so empowering.

My tummy bothers me too with all this stress and I have a couple of glasses of champagne and it helps me. Also, my wonderful wine at dinner. I love you guys!

Bobbie

Homerx,

Sorry to confuse you. DH stands for Dear husband. Thanks for understanding about the drinking. Very kind of you not to give me a lecture. I appreciate that. You are so concerned about me that you forgot to tell me about your arm. Bobbie and I are wondering how you are doing. Feel free to share with us for you are not alone. We care deeply.

Bobbie,

I was thinking about you today and I realized you come in later in the day. I now understand it is your treat. And what a treat it is. Ehealth forums gets me out of bed mainly because of you and Homerx. It is almost a month since I joined and I must say because of you two and a few others, my life has improved. It is not every forum I join that works out this way.

My day went on well. No alcohol. I did the skipping and changed into decent clothes. At noon until 2:00pm I was in a meeting with other HIV folk. We are planning advertisements to be put on radio. eg, "I am here, I am HIV and I am healthy." And also another one I liked, "I have HIV but it does not have me." We will do 7 of them taking about 15 seconds to thirty seconds. It is lots of fun. The AIDS office provided pizza for lunch. That was kind of them. "Give us this day our daily bread..."

Then I went to the pharmacy to get my mental health medication refills. Lithium and Olanzapine. The lady there said that I should go there every morning to make them happy. When she asked me how I was I said I was awesome and then I asked, "Isn't that incredible?" They were laughing. The she said spring is almost here and I said I thought it was here already because of the blossoms but I was deceived. They laughed some more. The Creator liveth.

From there I went to the labyrinth, bank and then home for a nap. Pascale my neighbour drove me to the disability office where I needed to drop a stub. I have to declare any income I make and I have to have proof of income. In the last pay cheque from the cleaning job that I quit, they never gave me a pay stub. The disability office asked for it but I explained on the phone that I couldn't. So today I was returning their stub without my personal stub. Complex . There are two stubs. One from the government and one from my work. Earlier on I returned the government stub and they rejected it saying that I needed to have two stubs. Today they called for me return the one they rejected. Such is the life.

That was kind of Pascale to drive me. It is all your good thoughts peoplez. We went to the mall and treated ourselves to chocolate. We needed it too. We had pizza for dinner. ("Give us this day our daily bread.) Pascale and Chris joined us. I was not complaining. Food is food.

It is 9:12pm. I am going to write to take my medication, write to my family, do dishes, shower, smoke a J, and hit the hay.

Another good day in paradise. Thank you Jesus.

Love
Mson

This morning Chachi gave birth to 6 puppies starting at 7 am and the last came out at 11 am...long morning!! But VERY exciting! 4 girls and 2 boys. She did so good, I am very prowd of that little 4 legger! She is so sweet and so cute and I can tell already that she is gonna be a great mom!!! But I am exausted, just had lunch and a Vicodine and a xanax to relax, I am going to stay in the bedroom with her today until Ricky gets home...

As for my doctor visit yesterday, she said I had brusidis from the accident, she drained the fluid from my elbo twise and thinks it is infected, she sent a sample to the lad to be tested, she put me on Vicodin for pain...and it HURTS!...gave me Celebrex and anti inflammatory meds... so thats my drama for the week. I go back to the doc tomorrow and i think she may have to drain more fluid from my elbo because it seems to have gathered more over nite. But thats OK, I am just glad to be alive and to have you guys to love me...and to love you back! What did I do before I found eHealth and my 2 ladies????

Bobbie, that is my treat also...to get messages from you and Mson...it makes my day complete and I cherish every kind and warm word... with deep love and understanding,homer

You both amaze me with your strength, courage and determination that this IS YOUR LIFE!!!! I love just having the previledge of knowing you and sharing with you our lives.

Lots of excitement going on with the new puppies Homer. Please post a picture. They must be just darling. Now, you know what it is to be a parent seeing birth happen in front of you. Gracious!

Mson, do you have the same time forward in the Spring, and back in the Fall? Because, I am just starting to catch up, too.

Will PM you both.

Love,

Bobbie

Homerx,

I am very excited to hear about the puppies. I was waiting since you told us they were coming. New creation and you got to experience it. That is so neat. 4 girls, two boys. Did you have fun checking down there? (Hehe). Good for you ma man.

Your arm sounds worse than you are letting us know. Ouch is right. I am glad you are seeking medical attention and I hope you are better soon. Are you on a sling? All the best my dear.

Boobie,

Always nice to hear from you. I always imagine you busy working during the day and then I imagine you enjoying champagne. You lucky duck. I can count the times I have drank champagne. And yes we spring ahead and fall back. It has really put me off and I cannot understand it. I should be getting better soon.

You are a good soul. I can feel your love and care. No doubt about that.

Today I woke up to the alarm at 8:45am but I ended up sleeping almost another hour. I was up at 9:52am. I came to the computer skipped rope, had cornflakes and made a tea to go. Nice eh? Then it was time to get ready for work. I work 10 minutes from home. I was at work for 10:45am.

Work went well. I finished at 2;30pm There was a type of MJ called harsh truffle and I wanted it so bad. I work at the front desk and I was asking the distributor if she had lots of harsh truffle and she said yes. When I went to get paid, there was no harsh truffle. I was so disappointed that when I saw the distributor I was like, "There was no harsh truffle... " I left work and went to the market to mbae cold meats for lunch and I decided to call the distributor to apologize. I have a purse without compartments and had to remove things from the purse to find my phone. I looked up and there was my 10$ bag of weed being blown away mbae the wind. I could have lost it. Anyway I called her and we were cool.

My sweet Mami called me from Kenya. I did not recognize her voice at first because I picked up the phone without checking who was calling. She was in a bus heading home from the coast. She had gone to see some orphans. She told me that everyone at home is fine. I am always happy to hear from home especially my Mami. I used to hate her for all the abuse she put me through when I was younger but now I have forgiven her and myself. When she came to our wedding in 2005, I was dreading meeting her that I wanted to kill myself - seriously. With a knife. But Jesus had mercy on me and I met her and told her how beautiful she was and she told me I was beautiful too. That is how we mended our broken relationship. At that time I had not seen anybody from my family for 9 years. The Creator liveth. I haven't seen my 5 brothers and sister since 1996. They are all married but one and have children who I only see on the photos. I miss them like crazy. That is why I am so envious of Homerx meeting his brother.


Came home and lunch. Pasclale and Chris were visiting which delayed my nap time to 4:20pm. didn't even smoke a J. I napped until 7:00pm. I was tired and I did not know it. I woke up and coloured. It was an elephant standing on a ball. I coloured the ball green, red and yellow and the elephant purple. My favourinte colour.

I have not followed my timetable for a while and therefore haven't done some of my other hobbies like crochet and collage but there is lots of room for improvement. It has been a month yesterday since I made that timetable and it has helped me. I just have to follow it more often.

The way the timetable came about is that at the marijuana club, the boss called me to his office and said I was spending too much time on the Internet doing non work related things eg emails to my family. At first I was mad and then I realized I spent a lot of time on the computer at home and at work. That is why I decided to have a time table. I can spend four hours just like that. One hour doing crochet, another collage, another one colouring and another napping. That would be time I would otherwise have spent in a boredom mood bothering Dear Husband as he is busy with his own things. Feeling insecure and having worrisome thoughts. So the lecture from the boss helped me make a timetable and then shortly after that I found ehealth and your lovely people. I was and still am fascinated mbae Homerx. My hero . I was looking for a site that fits into the work mandate and something that would be fun at the same time. Without a shadow of a doubt, I came to the right place at the right time.

Dinner was steak and Uncle Ben's rice. I have taken my medication, done the dishes, showered and the time is 10:32pm.

I am going to smoke a J and call it a day.

Once the day is gone, it is gone. Tomorrow is a brand new day. I love that attitude.

Lovingly
Mson

So Homerx referred me to this forum... Just wanted to drop in and say that reading this has made me really happy, I feel less alone...

I got home from work a few hours ago...It's exhausting, dealing with demanding people 8 hrs a day!! I feel a little strange, a lot tired...Phlegm in my throat...Ick! Going to go to sleep soon. Should go soon cuz I gotta get up early. Ugh, not into getting up early.. My boyfriend loves it, he's a total morning person.

I would write more but I'm so tired, my mind is turning to mush. Must rest. I hope I feel better in the morning!

xoxo,
MA

Yes, join us please. I know what you mean about dealing with demanding people 8 hours a day. I don't work any more but I was a bartender for 20 years and a weighter before that and people can be tough. What do you do 4 a living? I need to check out your profile before I start asking a bunch of dumb questions....but welcome to the Homer and Friends sight!!! Hope you got your sleep on!!

Ok, MA, re read your profile...Another Hedwig lover!!!! YES!!!! isn't The Onegin Of Love one of the best songs ever??? Ok, my bruised and battered arm is starting to ache so I have to get off here for now.......wwwaaaaaaa welcome

Welcome here. The more the merrier. The Ehealth forums have helped me become a healthier person in slightly over a month. I started this particular topic because I wanted to keep in touch with Homerx. It so happened that Homerx had another lady friend Bobbie. And so we have been writing to each other for about a month. It is a great space to pour out your mind.

Like the other day I noticed I was over 160 pounds. It is the having three meals a day. I did not do breakfast for years until I joined the Ehealth forums and I never really did lunch. I was operating from one meal a day. How crazy was that? A person living with AIDS and Bi Polar and eating only once a day! Unreal. To say the truth, I was lost.

When I joined, I read Homerx's posts and realised he was into exercise, resting, eating and getting well. I admired that in him and wanted to say the same about myself. He motivated me like nobody's business. He woke me up from a deep sleep. He made me realize that one can get even better. He insists it is not a death sentence and I believe him for it has been over 15 years with AIDS for me. I needed to be here.

I just got out of bed a few minutes after 11:00am. This habit must stop.

Anyway, just wanted to welcome you. Thanks for writing in and may the light shine upon you.

Is that your correct birthday on your profile? Please let me know.

Sorry to hear about the difficult job you have. I deal with the public too but it is only three half days a week. 8 hours? You are amazing.

Love
Mson

Sorry about your arm . Hope you are better soon. I am just having cereal and the tea kettle is boiling. It is 11:47am. I am sleeping many hours and I think my body is mending. The body has the food it needs and now it wants rest. You know Homerx, you are an . I you. When I came crawling into the Ehealth doors, you were there. The things you talked about spoke to me. Especially the exercise. This is the most meaningful forum I have ever joined and I have been on forums since 2003. This is something that changed me as a person. I was looking for change and I found it in you. And I found love and care and now I have new friends here who I pray for everyday but Sunday. On Sundays I rest.

Have a great day my dear and I'll let you know how my day goes.

Hope Bobbie is having a good day. She works and has children to tend to, I admire her and she is so sweet but can get to be a no nonsense lady like when she was responding to Mr Tibbs. Hahaha!



Bobbie is real maternal protecting those in her nest. I love her.

Love
Mson.