Homerx,

I get busy only three half days a week. The teaching only happens here and there.

Our job is toget well. Please don't feel like you are doing nothing. You are very helpful with the forums and you do your chores at home. Don't belittle what you have to offer.

About staying in doors, I feel for you there but I hope you can make a timetable made out of things you like to do. You will find you are not bored that way.

I know what you are saying about missing home. It will be 12 years for me come this July. At least I saw my parents in 2005 during the wedding. That gave me a break otherwise I would be nuts. I feel you sweetheart.

Meanwhile, I am praying for you. Please don't feel trapped. OK?

Love
Mson

Thanks Mson...once again, you nailed it. Right on the spot. I am homesick for San Fransisco and I was just there a few months ago. You are correct though, I am blessed to have my home and my dogs and my fenced in yard and a comfortable house and food and water and ...geesss, i guess I am a lucky man when I look at the bright side. My glass is not half empty, it is half full!!! Thanks for the reality check, you help me appreciate what i have instead of worrying about what I don't have and don't really need.... I think I will celebrate my new found happiness with a J
xoxo,Homie

My dear,

Thanks for your kind words.

Did you read my post on the last page? We are now on page 30! Amazing grace.

I was anointed in January 1999 in a Baptist Church at the Western Community. I was anointed to run a ministry. See A Need - Fill A Need (SAN-FAN). This is the ministry that became SAN-FAN Educational Group. Our mission is to prevent HIV/AIDS through education and to empower others through story telling.

Ehealth forums gives me a chance to do that. I am doing God's work and so are you and Sweet Bobbie (where is she?) and soo many others. Birds of a feather flock together Homerx.

This is how I got to Western baptist church.

I think I told you this story before but I have a need to tell it again. Hope you don't mind.

I was in the laundry room of my apartment building in 1997. Jessy had just died. In the laundry room was a guy known as David. The next thing I knew, he was in my room. The next thing again, I was in his hotel room. I had never seen this before but he removed some white powder. (I might not have told you this story). Anyway, we snorted the stuff. I left the room in search of a bathroom and was outside in the lobby with just my underwear. I had lost my mind.

A staff opened the door for me. She didn't ask any questions.

Next thing I know, David is my apartment and he is using the bathroom a lot. I went in there and he had a syringe and the white powder. One thing led to another and the next thing I knew, he was injecting me. Homerx, I could feel snakes spitting on my feet. I just couldn't see them. The whole world was rocking. I prayed to God to keep me alive.

When David left for Thailand, he gave me a phone number and said if I was ever in trouble, I should get in touch with the person the phone number belonged to.

When I was being deported, that was big trouble. I called the number and they guy came and moved to his place and soon we were going out.

Near where we lived, there was a Western Baptist Church and I used to go there. They asked if anyone had a ministry and I said yes and when I explained myself, they prayed for me and anointed me. That is how that happened.

That night after David had injected me, I was taken to the hospital and the next morning the nurse asked me, "How could a good girl like you do cocaine? Lord have mercy. I almost fainted and I was lying down.

After I left the hospital, the cops came to see me and I was telling them what a good girl I am, that I clean houses to make a living. How they got my address was this girl I knew from al non 12 step program. I kept calling her and she acted nice and asked me to repeat my address. Thinking she was coming to see me, I gave her the address. That day, the cops showed up.

Next thing I know, immigration was on my door asking me if I was HIV , if I was cleaning houses without a permit and if I had a passport. I had lost the passport while out drinking tequila. I never lied to them Homerx. And that day I was released from lying and stealing. I was 29 years old. I am slow but I get there somehow.

Then I was in the police cells, released and caught again but this time I had a lawyer. I was almost deported but my escort to Kenya turned everything around. I was in hot soup. I told her my story and explained that I needed HIV medication. When I got back to Victoria, I started teaching about HIV/AIDS and telling my story. That was 10 years ago and still going strong.

Now I have a work visa and a temporal resident permit. My second permanent resident application is at the lawyer's office. Immigration may say yes or they may say no. My beloved husband and I are ready for any eventuality. We are one and we will be deported as one.

When immigration issues are over, a big load will have been released from my heart and shoulders. Please continue to pray for us.

Thanks for listening Homerx.

About the Chinese herbs, I don't know what they are called because it is all written in Chinese.

Hugfully
Mson.

Wow,Mson! Geezzz, no I did not know that. Baby girl, you have grown up a lot if you let that happen and didn't realize that it was trouble. I am just so glad that you wised up and realized that doing that kind of risky thing can get you in a lot of trouble or even dead So Glory Be To God that you survived that episode and recovered and are now prospering and moving forward with a positive step! Hallelujah!
Thats quite a tale,my dear...you have lived a life. And now you are a teacher! How cool is that?
OK, off to bed to watch some TV and ...have a wonderful evening and sweet dreams...
Peace and Love,
Homer

My child had just died and I could take anything that would make me feel better. I did not know that time would heal my wounds.

It seems liked I learned the best through mistakes. That is why I tell my story so that I can ease the pain of others. That they do not have to go through what I went through. That when they traveled to another country and saw drugs they would know them.

Not to be ignorant like I was.

While I was in detention, a lady I was cleaning for houses agreed to pay like a bail of $1000 and immigration told her that I was a drug addict and she would never see her money again. She left without paying. Then I called the guy whose number I had from David.

They were trying to stop him from paying but he talked to them and finally the took the bail and I was released.

Soo glad that my body did not like the drug. That addict on the street could have easily been me. There but mbae the grace of God goes I.

I better take my medication. ...

9 pills once a day. Treating Bi polar, AIDS and some vitamins.

Ignorance is not an excuse but it is the most violent element in the world today.

Peace and Love, Health and Wellness. Nite nite
Mson

so true...
I am up and moving today, I have to finish laundry and then maybe work out some after lunch. I have had a nice weekend. We relaxed and worked in the yard,well, Ricky worked in the yard and I cleaned house. Then we bathed all the dogs and I changed the sheets. Clean dogs and clean sheets and clean me...I love to snuggle with my dogs,and Ricky in bed with the TV on and everyone all clean and content and comfy and safe...... Have a great day!

Have you seen Bobbie? I wonder how she is doing with her new team of workers.

Good to see you are going on with your day Homerx.

You had a busy weekend. Very clean.

I was up in the wee hours of the morning getting sick. I think I took my cereal with spoiled milk. I am better now.

Slept in this morning. I don't have appetite for breakfast. No milk in the house. I'll make some peppermint tea.

Then I am going to the herbalist. He said to go back after 4 days of taking the herbs.

From there I will go and take my walk. Come home and do the dishes.

I rested a lot yesterday and I really needed the rest as I have been on a go go mode for the last three weeks.

My tea water is boiling. While the tea cools off I will skip rope a hundred and fifty times.

My brother got the $$ I sent. He was very grateful and said it will go a long ways into helping his daughter.

Have a great day as well.

Always with love
Mson.

Mson...I don't know about those herbs. maybe they are making you sick. Please talk to your doctor before continuing to take them. Please...my doctor has specifically said to NOT take any unknown or untested herbal supliments as they can make you very ill...so please, stop taking them until you consult with your physician. Dont believe what the herbalist says as they are selling product...just my concern for you and now you are not feeling well so don't put unknown herbs into your fragile body..

I won't lie to you but I am still going to the herbalist.

I think I got sick because of the spoiled milk. I will give the herbalist one more trial and that is it for the month. I have to take the herbs when I am on my periods and a few days after the period before baby making time because I don't want the herbs to interfere with possible pregnancy. After this, I won't go back until next period.

See, I have a plan.

Thanks for caring my dear.

xoxo
Mson

OK, but I still don't like it... taking something that you dont know anything about where it comes from or what it is could be counter productive but you have to do what your going to do and I understand that.
Love you, Homer

I love you both Muthoni and Homer! God bless! You have bothed helped me a lot. You both have so much to offer in this world!

Thanks a bunch. God bless you too. It is all God's work. Your kind words are much appreciated. May God give all us more days.

Love you too. I'll be praying for you.

Health and Wellness
Mson.

good morning...I woke up and got sick this morning I think maybe the stomach flue. I never throw up but I felt ickie and nauseous and threw up first thing this morning. sorry if I am grossing you out.
I will talk to you later, I hope I feel better, I had nothing in my stomach so it was just liquid bile and it burned I think I will not do much today...

Poor Baby doll. I am sorry to hear that you are not feeling well. I hope you are better soon. In the months I have known you, you haven't been sick.

I was very tired Sunday and yesterday but I seem to be feeling better today.

Take good care of yourself. Lot's of fluid and try to get some rest. I hate that bile. So bitter. Try and eat something if you can.

Get well soon, feel better, thinking about you.

Much love
Mson.

thank you, my love. I am just sitting on the couch today and watching TV. Yes, bitter bile...yuck But I will have some chicken noodle soup for lunch and juice, I hope it stays down. yeah, you are right, I haven't been sick in a very long time. Maybe stomach flue, I don't know but thanks,dear... xoxo and lots o love,Homer

Been working so hard the past few days. Had to sterilize all the winery equipment used for racking the wine as Aaron is coming out tonight to take out the oak barrels and wash them so we can put the wine back in. Took me four hours but I have a wonderful little pump that does a great job once all that is done. Pump the wine out into drums, wash everything again for tonight when we put the wine back in.

Homer, sorry, about your being sick. I think you ate something that upset your stomach. That bile throw up thing is the pits. I know. Just plain awful. Get better sweet one.

Mson you also take care of yourself. I understand you are very intelligent and your own woman but herbs are very, very powerful. Please fully explain to the practioner from whom you get the herbs your entire medical history. And, all the other medications that you are on.

Also, possibly go online to see if the herbs given in the proportion prescribed can coexist with your meds.

Well, they finished up training and tying up the new plants. What a long time to finish but I did some of it and I can tell you it is tedious work as the plants are so tender and easily broken. I broke three canes off doing it. They are good people and very hard working.

I know if I had kept Lee, his crew would have swept through here and had it done in much less time but I will see what happens with the rest of the game plan with the new manager. He is very nice and kind too. He came out Saturday and I was in the vineyard helping my four workers. He carefully showed me exactly how to cut and train them. Good to know.

My son was here for a few days. It was wonderful to have him home. It always is. He lights up the room and everybody he meets with his beautiful smile, eyes and best of all his soul. It is a shining one.

Bobbie

How are you feeling now? Did the soup stay down?

It ended up I haven't done anything today. No laundry, no dishes, no skipping rope. Rested a lot and now I am ready to go to work. I saved up my energy for work. I haven't eaten anything. I better fix myself a sandwich.

Beloved husband and I have decided that we eat out today instead of tomorrow and that will give me ample time to do the dishes. Lord have mercy. I have lost my routine.

I did have a bath and read a full chapter of a book mbae Joel Osteen. "How to become a better you."

I'll be praying for you.

On my break I will be going to the labyrinth. Must light the candle immediately.

Times seems to be flying mbae but that is because I kept on sleeping.

I have to go to the pharmacy before work.

xoxo
Mson

kept down soup but still feel yuckie...thanks,guys.

Bobbie, the herbalist said that as long as I take the herbs four hours after the western medication, I should be fine. Have you tried herbs before Bobbie? I want to do this so that I can say I have done it. Desperately looking for something to help my immune system.

The herbs are all written down in Chinese. Tough to tell what I am taking but I am doing this Bobbie. I have three more treatments to go and then I will go off the herbs for a while. Then I will go back on after a while. I intend to go back on it - on and off until I have a blood test.

Then I will decide based on the test results if I want to continue the herbs or not.

Glad you are doing well with the new team. Always praying for you.

xoxo
Mson

Good Mson. Just only want the best for you.

I don't know how to improve my immune system. When I was sick from being exposed to the mold in my car's air conditioning system, the Pulmonologist said I had Asthma and had me on steroids for a year and a breathing machine with more steroids. I just got weaker and sicker, lost 40 pounds and finally could not even sit up.

My doctor sent me to Dr. Wolfe, a good doctor, who saved my life. Even he had his doubts and said he would test for lung cancer, and my last chance was Prednisone and it was really hard on the body. I asked him to please help me and do the best he could because my husband loved me. He said he could hear blood in my lungs. He sent in blood for testing. It came back I truly was exposed to mold and was even tested positive for penicillin present in my blood.

He sent me for six weeks to the hospital for an hour each day for them to pound on my lungs to get the pus and mucus out. That is what these poor children with Cystic Fibrosis go through every day of their lives. Many do not live beyond 30 years of age.

Right now, my immune system is not strong. The doctor on eHealth said that I was unable to battle off the HPV where my former BF, his ex-wife and GF were able to. I still know good and well that is where I got HPV. There was nobody else but him and then he admitted being with that new GF. One woman is never in the cards for that guy. Still hunting around for what is new for him. The man will never be happy. God help him and love him because I certainly did and probably will until the day I die.

I do like the new team Mson. God bless you in all good ways. Kiss BH and be sweet to him. Be sweet to your man and Lordy! Look at the rewards in that!

Homer knows what I am talking about here.

So tired been working 12 hours straight today to get that wine taken care of. Stopped off at Tortilla Town for a burrito. Eat and to bed.

Love to you dear friends,

Bobbie