Yes, finally I can sit down and enjoy the weekend. After breakfast I skipped rope a hundred and fifty times as we agreed Homerx and I. Then I treated my hair, went for my walk to the labyrinth. Said prayers for everybody I can remember. Went to London Drugs to get garbage bags. Met my friend Geladine who was with two other women. We chatted for while. I went and got lunch meats and came home.

We had lunch and then my brother in law came over. He and his older brother were playing video games. I decided to do the dishes first. I wiped the counters and the stove top. I thank God for conveniences like hot and cold water, a tap, a functioning toilet, a bath tub, a fridge, a stove, a nice bed to sleep in. Things like those. Food...

From the kitchen I washed the tub, the toilet and the sink. Swept the kitchen floor and cleaned it. Hands on knees is what I do best. I washed the bathroom floor as well. I cleared my desk. Dear husband has to do the same. There is soo much stuff on his desk and I don't know what is what. He has to do it himself. I'll keep bugging him

After that I vacuumed. I feel like I have my life back to normal. I still have to dust but most of the work is done.

It is time to be lazy until Monday.

Have a fabulous weekend everybody.

xoxo
Mson.

I want to thank you for your kindness and goodness to me. You have made me realize the many things that I have to be thankful for. And, to let go of past mistakes. As you say, until you can cut them and be free of them, they hold you back down on the earth. Cut that cord and you have released whatever pain and sorrow they have caused you. And, conversely, what sorrow you may have caused them in return.

Your image of the stones was quite profound. I have a beautiful grey stone which is worn smooth which I keep in my bathroom. That stone will be where I deposit all the unhappy memories of my former BF. Homer says we are not going to mention his name again. That is brilliant. To give a name means that you acknowledge the person.

You and Homer are the best things that ever happened to me.

I can climb upstairs and sit at my computer up there where the printer is functioning and write the termination letter but the business relationship is already severed, finished, over with and out of here.

My new vineyard manager has had a crew in here cleaning up and training the new vineyards. I have never made a better decision Mson.

Rosemary, your mother, is a Catholic name. Were you baptised and confirmed Catholic? Is your mother still in the faith? Sorry, I know that is a very personal question.

Tomorrow, I will go to Mass and this nice man whom I have met at church is joining me, then we are going to an antique car show at the school then he has invited me to The Wine Attic for music, dancing and of course wine. He is so nice and like a little puppy wanting me to like him. I can't be with anybody in that special way. Not now and maybe never.

Last night at the winery dinner, everybody was so nice to him but checking him out. They said he is a really nice guy. He is but I think Heaven can get a bit crowded when you drag too many husbands up there. Walter was my husband and the only one I ever wanted. It was nice, though, to have someone as good company. Pray for me Mson.

My brother kept telling me to pray that God would send to me a good man to be my husband who would love and treasure me. I don't know Mson. Maybe this guy could be him. Will have to wait and see.

Love to you and BH. Give him a very special massage and lots of love.

Your friend,

Bobbie

Good Monday, friends..
I am getting a slow start today. Mson, i walked yesterday 30 minutes...I will do the same today and lift weights a little...It is so hot I think it is draining of me energy every time I step out side. I talked to my doc this morning. I need a colostomy I hate those...the prep drains me but my father has colon cancer, my grandfather and 2 uncles died from it on my dads side so i will have to get one. i dont know when as we only have one car with AC and I cant drive to town in the heat so I dont know when I will be able to get it done. Its always something.
Mson, I got the blessed green prayer cloth for you yesterday. I will pray on it, kiss it and hold it for a day then send it to you to keep you safe and so you can wear it and pray with it...it will help protect you. Plus it will look nice if you wear it. It couldn't hurt, right? And you will know this came from someone who loves you, not some televangelist who only wanted your $$..
Talk to you and Bobbie soon...Bobbie, glad its all going so well...I knew it would
Love,Homer

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x5YinC46RZU &feature=related

Bobbie that is not a personal question. I am not sure which church we went to when I was born but later we became Presbyterian. I was born as Minnie which is a form of Mary. Then in the school system my name changed to Minneh. I am named Muthoni after my paternal grandmother. May she rest in peace. When I got married, I gave up the Muthoni name just to cut the bad history and start a fresh. I used my father's middle name as my middle name and I have my beloved husband's last name. I feel new. More than 60% new.

In all other forums I have used the name Minneh but when I got here, I chose Muthoni. My grandmother.

Bobbie I have very happy for you. Hope you change the code if you haven't done so already because remember what you found missing? Change the code Bobbie.

Homerx,

You rock. After I they never sent me my green cloth, I started to doubt if I wanted one. I will wear the one you anointed on my wrist. It is real medicine. It will help me. I am leaving the cocoon Steve. Slowly but surely. I believe I can fly. You raise me up Homerx....

Bobbie & Homerx,

I love you both lots...

Today I woke up at 6:40am. My beloved husband made me a pan cake. Yesterday he forgot to put away the milk and so I had no milk for my cereal. Luckily, he had some left over pancake mix in the fridge and I was able to have breakfast. Thanks Jesus. This is why I need the prayer cloth because Ssatan wanted me to be grumpy. But no, not I. I had a class to teach. Souls to touch.

I was teaching a class at 8:05am. I was there with time to spare. Thank you Jesus. I had energy and did the whole presentation. I have another presentation at 1:05pm. I finished the first class after an hour and took the bus to the labyrinth and came home. I watered the house plants. I could hear them screaming for water. Being able to take care of something or someone else means you have something in order to be able to give.

I am leaving in 23 minutes for the class but first I have to eat my lunch.

Homerx, I like that video very much.

Bobbie, take a chance on the that man.

Love you peoplez
Mson.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QTahrYXCChI

Mson and Bobbie, you are both such busy people. I sit home almost every day... I have a thing about getting out in heat and bugs and all that stuff here in Texas..its horrible for someone like me. Bobbie, Ricky and I are thinking about moving back to California if we can get what we want for our house. We are looking at Redding or somewhere up North..I am just about sick of Texas. Too red neck. Too hot. Too many bugs. Too rural out here. I need city life at least some times. I love culture and liberal thinking people and there just are too many republican bible thumping hypocrites out here But I can deal with it for now as long as I have you guys to talk to.
Thanks for being my friends...
Love,Steve/Homer/whatever

I watched your You Tube video too, from here in England. Incredible statistics, incredibly told by an incredibly beautiful lady inside and out. Very moving, very shocking, very empowering xxx

Hi Jonn man am I happy to C U here. R U going to become a poster here. You know, its me and these 2 lovely ladies and it would be nice to have another guy to talk with...you know how Bobbie and Mson can gang up on me and get all into there Girl Power thing... just kidding, but it would be nice if you became a regular..

i love the interesting view of members i hope to contributes to this forum .i am a new member here.

Welcome! Join in any time, we love to have every ones opinions...

No one around today? OK, I guess I should do something since everyone else seems to be busy...talk to you later
Bobbie, I love your new avatar xoxo,me

I missed my Bobbie and my Mson today...
I really did, I have gotten so used to having you to talk to and I was ... well, I just missed ya, thats all..have a great night.
Mson, I answered all the Unanswered Posts that I could ...I think there are only 5 or 6 left.
Have a great nite,you guys...I miss you.
All my love and affection forever,
Homer/Steve

I have been pretty busy here getting things done. First, I go out into the winery to discover when I pulled four bottles to send to the State of California wine competition that the boxes (37) were actually placed with the bottles up. Not good. So with all the strength that I had, I asked God to help me. These were 7 boxes high and in the corner where finally I had to leave the ladder and put my foot onto a wine barrel to be able to turn them over. My body feels it today.

Then, tomorrow is clean up day and I had to move all the cartons which surrounded the the baby grape plants down to the bottom of the hill for pick up. It was four hours but I feel good about it. As usual Lee said just get Jamie to come out with two guys, a trailer and take it to the dump and be rid of it. For $150.00. No. It wasn't his money. I feel I made $150.00 today. Just like when he said, have the tractor guy dig a big ditch and bury all the roots from the trees and be done with it. That cost me an additional $5,000.00. We could have burned the things for no cost. Just never stopped to think of all these things adding way up for me.

The progress is going slowly on training the new plants which is freaking me out. It is going to wind up costing me $5,000.00 with the way it is going. I had thought maybe $2,500.00 with the way Lee's guys worked. I don't know. Hope I have made the right decision. I know I have been out there and tried to tie them down and it is very delicate and tedious work. A good worker can only do 23 to 27 plants an hour and there are 8,750 plants. Just have to trust in the Lord here Homer.

Thanks for the love of the avatar. Lee is a sweetheart. She put it on for me. That will be my avatar. It is the Oklahoma rose, the most beautiful, truly damask smelling rose in the world. It is where I was born. I love that rose.

Make dinner and talk with you later.

Bobbie

I have just finished doing eight presentations in the last little while. That and working at the club got me tired.

Today I went to the Chinese doctor and he took my pause. He detected anxiety and also said that my immune system is low. He gave me some herbs to boil and drink and he said as long as I take my medication four hours apart from when I take the herbs, I should be OK. So I have boiled the herbs and I have one cup ready to take tomorrow morning. I have herbs for 4 days and then I will go back and see the herbalist. I believe in this kind of medicine.

Homerx,

I cannot believe you did all those questions. You worked real hard. Now what will I do to keep busy? Just kidding. But seriously those were a lot of posts. Good job and God bless. Now we can concentrate on the new posts.

Bobbie,

Change is always different. I think the new people are doing a better job and it will show eventually. I will continue to pray for you.

And yes, nice avatar.

All the best to you.

Hugfully and with love
Mson

With all my love from this side of the planet.

Mson, thanks for sharing your journey of the names given to you by the Angel of the Lord who knows and gives unto the mother, the name of the child that she will give birth to.

You are just so sweet and loving, kind and good.

Homer, I have been overwhelmed lately getting all these heavy things lifted and changed in the winery. At least most of the boxes were o.k. I can be thankful that I was able to change the boxes and they were at the top, otherwise, it would have been totally impossible. Thanks be to God.

I have tried to do some of the tying down of the new plants onto the cardion wire, but Lee's people who planted the vineyard put them on the wrong side of the posts which makes it difficult to train. Honestly, what was he thinking? About making money off me was what he was thinking. He says he loves this little vineyard, don't take him away from his babies. He lost those babies a long time ago. They should never have been put into the ground in the first place. I would be a lot better off but my son says, "Mom, that is water under the bridge." You have to go forward. I love Mark. He is coming home Saturday and we will go to the dinner for the grape growers and he can meet my friends.

Check out Testimonials you two good people.

Bobbie

WOW! How cool...thanks, Mson and Bobbie...I never even knew that Testimonial section was there... how did i miss that? I will have to add something to that forum soon...
Its so hot and windy today... I guess summer has arrived...ug! not my favorite time of year here in the South...I miss California so much...some day i will get back, don't know how and dont know when but I will get back home some day...

You will get back home to California. Can't wait to meet you and Ricky and your family.

Bobbie

thx,Bobbie...I hope and pray that I do. I have never felt at home anywhere but there...the people are so open, the City is so beautiful, the Bay so alive,the people mostly....so open and cool and loving...one day...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vxiGZ1csCAg

At about 6:00am I needed to use the washroom and so I came downstairs and remembered to drink the bitter liquid from the herbs. I went back to bed and woke up at 8:45am to the alarm. I had to be at work in an hour. My stomach was emptied like a cleanse. I felt that I had more energy during the day. During my break I ran home and back to work.

Work was great. They are giving us half hour breaks now. All your prayers Bobbie and Homerx have been working.

From work I came home and Chris and Amy were visiting with my beloved husband. We had to leave for a doctor's appointment. My BH always comes with me to my doctor's appointment. This was the mental health doctor.

I told him I am concerned about gaining weight. Like I mean I am almost 170 pounds. He told me everything they use causes weight gain. He said we will see how much I weigh in three months and then he will decided if he will reduce my medication. I would like it to go down to 5mg. If not, that is OK too. I am not really concerned about the weight I just want the medication to be reduced.

From there we came home. Amy left and then Sandor came mbae. I missed the labyrinth yesterday, sleeping in and then school teaching and then work. Today even though I did not feel like walking, I got myself out of the house and put one foot in front of the other. Ya.

On the way I met with this couple that sells art and plays music. We chatted for a while. They were saying that I should be adopted mbae the native people. He is native from the States.

First I had met with Richard who is a member of the club. He lives out of his cart but he is always happy. He told me that worrying about something is not going to change a thing. You can see in his eyes and his face, the joy. He said he might encounter things he does not like but he accepts them.

At the labyrinth I saw Sean who works at the church and he offered me a pop. He mixed orange juice and ginger ale. It was a good refreshing drink.

The walk back home was uneventful. Chris, Sandor, my BH and I went out for Chinese dinner.

We don't have much money but we have pocket money coming in every week as long as I work but we have good credit. It helps me not to have financial panics. Thanks for your prayers. I have had pocket money since my cleaning job.

It is bed time now. I will drink some more of those herbs tomorrow morning and see what happens.

I used to have dark spots all over my feet for the longest time. Yesterday I was showing the herbalist my feet and he could not see what was wrong with them. I checked later and the spots have faded to almost none. Something is happening to my body and it shows. Thanks Jesus, bless all that pray for me.

My idea is to get well so that I can lessen other people's pain. I feel that I lived so that others may not have to suffer the way I suffered. I learned for the most part through mistakes like most people I suppose.

It is bed time for BONZO!

Wi chat later
xoxo
Mson

Mson, thanks! You made me LOL..."It is bed time for BONZO! I cracked up big time...thanks, dearest.
I am glad the herbs seem to be doing good for you. I was worried. I get nervous over the tiniest things sometimes. I was afraid they might not be good for you combined with your meds but I guess I was wrong. Sounds like they work...do you know what is in the herbal drink? maybe I should try it
I haven't left the house all week. Ricky has the car at work and the truck has no AC and its hot and muggy so I am trapped in my house! I need to go get pricked and to the drug store and grocery store...oh well, maybe this week end. its always something...if it isn't one thing then its another
Today I will walk the treadmill and lift a few weights and change the sheets on the bed and dust the tables and... wow I guess I have a lot to do today after all I guess I better get busy....talk to you later
Oh Bobbie, thanks for the posts on that stupid Catholic Dogma Wanna Be A Holly Roller Mans thread... he can make me so irritated and you are right, I need to not get so worked up and get my blood pressure boiling..

I took my mixture of herbs at 6:00am and slept in so that the herbs may work. I had breakfast and replied to my emails. I am trying to read and reply on a daily basis.

After breakfast I started cleaning as it was housekeeping day. After I read about Homerx cleaning and dusting, I really got in the mood. Scrubbed the tub, cleaned the toilet. Did the dishes. Wiped the stove and counter, swept and cleaned the kitchen floor. Cleaned the bathroom floor and de-cluttered the tables and then vacuumed. I did it all with a grateful heart. Glad that I have a home to clean.

Then it was time to go to work. During my break I went to the labyrinth and then came back to work until 7:15pm. Went home, had dinner.

Was going to give my beloved husband a massage this morning after not giving him one last night but I got called to work this morning. Extra $$. It is all your prayers. During my break I will go to the labyrinth again. After work I will go to Western Union and send some $$ to my brother to help his daughter get a passport. I am sending $60 with a $16 charge. Then I have to mbae a calling card to call my brother to inform him about the token. Since I got paid from speaking at the school, I can afford to send some money home.

I am about to go on my break.

Wi chat later,
Mson