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Posted: 04-27-08 13:37pm
Mson...sorry but I have been burned by a
couple of people and after they took from
me they disappeared...and they were
supposedly my friends and family. I know
it sounds mean but I am very careful who I
accept into my home...and my heart. I
know it is sad and confusing but you
should not have to hide your cereal or
anything else in your own home.
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Homerx. Posted: 04-27-08 16:01pm
I remember just too well when I was a
thief. I did not respect others and their
things. I can understand where she is
coming from. I also remember the first
time I stood on the streets of Nairobi as
a prostitute. I had asked two men for bus
fare so that I could go breastfeed my
daughter but they had no money. I
remember that.
I know I cannot trust the girl and so I
make sure she is not left in house alone.
Maybe this is where she will learn to be
trustworthy. If that means hiding my
cereal, so be it.
Beloved husband talked to her this
morning. He explained that I went to have
lunch and there was no bun. She
apologized for that. I told her we can
feed her dinner but not breakfast and
lunch. I told her times are tough.
Anyway, I am just glad to have somewhere
that I can write my thoughts to you.
Love
Always
Mson
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Honestly Mson Posted: 04-27-08 19:25pm
You can always be a loving and giving
person. But, remember Jesus said the poor
will be with you always.
My own brother used to totally torment my
parents, always a hand out. They are long
gone, he still goes on taking. Not from
me because I will not allow it. That
doesn't matter, he has other people he can
hit.
My favorite brother Bobby was always so
good to him. I found a beautiful picture
of Bobby and me when we were small
children. I could have kept it for
myself, but instead wanted Bobby to have
it.
Next thing you know, my other brother was
parked on their property, living in his
car with his dog and went into their home
and removed the picture from the wall and
took it for himself.
I am sharing this with you Mson, because
there are people who feel it is right to
walk right into your house and take. No.
It is not right.
Bobbie
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Also, Mson Posted: 04-27-08 19:33pm
Last night, we had our grape grower's
dinner and I sat beside a Pathologist and
I brought up the subject of HPV and your
questions. I told her that you had the
loop procedure and that the doctor said to
return in one year. I also explained
about the HIV/AIDS. She said your immune
system is compromised.
Unfortunately, so is mine from steroid use
I believe when I was misdiagnosed with
asthma and they put me on that for a year.
Then Prednisone.
We are living proof we can live, be
healthy and survive here Mson. Homer too.
I am so proud of that man. He can talk
to you equally well, honestly, whether you
are a man or a woman. That is something I
love so much about Homer.
Today at mass, the priest talked about
things which sent arrows through my heart.
We know the commandments God gave to us.
We don't willingly go in and say in the
beginning, I am going to love you and then
throw you aside for sin leaving pain and
sorrow. I certainly didn't. He said God
knows that we are frail and we will fall.
A lot to think about. Like you said Mson,
it was a real step forward for me to talk
to him.
Lee is now calling me crazy for talking to
the priest and all the other issues of the
vineyard numbers not adding up. I am not
the one here who has gone through three
psychiatrists and they keep referring him
to somebody else. Guess they don't buy
into his lack of wanting to be well.
Well, my friends, Mson, Homer, Ma, we do
want to be well.
Love,
Bobbie
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Posted: 04-28-08 09:52am
Good morning, my ladies...Monday again!!
Where did the week end go???
It is in the 60s here at the moment and
that is refreshing and unusual. Usually it
is much hotter. I am enjoying the
coolness.
Today I am going to clean out the guest
bedroom, it is full of stuff...boxes and
what not...I need to be able to get to my
weight machine, I have been walking on the
treadmill but I haven't lifted waits in a
long time. I have been blaming it on the
puppies but it is time to clear that room
out and get back with the program of daily
exercise, and not just walking on the
treadmill. I need to lift weights as well.
I hope you had a good week end? What did
yall do? I cleaned house yesterday and
watched TV for hours and my Dad and Step
mom came over and had dinner and birthday
cake, it was her birthday and we played
board games and had fun. I am a lucky man.
I have to get a few things done today and
then I can get into that bed room and get
it all put back together.
Bobbie, sounds like you and I both fallow
the side of caution when it comes to
trusting just any one. Family or not, you
have to be smart and worldly,
unfortunately. I wish we did live in a
word where you could trust with out
thought but alas, that isn't a smart way
to live I don't thing. God looks out for
those who look out for themselves
sometimes. Foolish is as foolish does..
Oh well, today is a new day and everything
is going to be alright.
Love,Homer
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Quite the morning. Posted: 04-28-08 12:20pm
We had a lovely weekend. Had dinner with
family on Saturday and dinner with friends
on Sunday.
This morning I woke up at 8:45am and got
ready right away so that I can mbae a
calling card to call my brother who is
turning 38 years old. The shop with the
cards I like was closed so I decided to go
to the labyrinth. On the way there, I met
with Mitch my friend. He was leaning mbae
the wall breathing hard. He has gained a
lot of weight. He offered me a coffee but
I declined. It was nice to see him. I
don't know how much longer he will last
but may the Lord have mercy.
I continued walking then I heard my name.
I looked and it was ex from a long time
ago Micheal. He had sun glasses on and a
hat and he said he was going for a beer.
He was honest. Such an early morning. I
thank God that I am not with him. He
invited me for a beer and I said no. I
wondered which bar would be open at that
hour. I usually see him at the MJ club
but it has
been a long time since I seen him so down.
I prayed for him. It is all I could do.
From there I go to the labyrinth and do my
thing. Then I am walking down the road
and someone in a blue van waves at me. I
wave back and walk away wondering who that
was. Then the same vehicle stops beside
me. He went and turned around. He
opened the knob on the passenger seat but
I am smart, I did not get in. He rolled
the window down and I asked him how he was
and he asked me what I was up to. I told
him I was out for a morning walk and asked
if I wanted to go for a hike. I told him
I didn't have the shoes for it and walked
away.
Gone are the days when I jumped into any
vehicle. Gone are the days...
I should be at work the whole morning till
2:30pm when I will come home and clean up
the kitchen before watching Oprah. Before
I go to work I will skip rope, smudge and
light the candle. I have a few minutes to
do that. I better get on with it.
Homerx, I went mbae the post office -
nothing yet. I think goods get held up in
customs. The gift package should be here
soon. Thanks for thinking about me
Always with love
Mson
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Posted: 04-28-08 12:34pm
Mson, yes, it will probably take 10 to 14
days is what the post office lady told me.
I did not send it fast mail, just regular
mail. I guess I mailed it 4 days ago maybe
I
hope it gets there in one piece It
was one box with several things in it. Let
me know when you get it.
That is scary, that man wanting you to get
in his van. NEVER ever ever do that.
Never. No matter what some one says to you
or offers you, do not get into a strangers
vehicle...that is very dangerous.
OK, I haven't cleaned the guest room
yet...I better get with it so I can watch
TV this after noon...I must work out as
well...walk and weights...
I am SO lazy but once I get up off my butt
and get going it isn't bad at all and
after words I feel so much better!
OK...talk to you later.
Love and peace,Homer
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Homerx. Posted: 04-28-08 15:52pm
I think I will be walking right after all
the morning routine. I really enjoyed
walking this morning other than people I
met. I am planning on waking up, doing
breakfast, skipping rope, smudge, lighting
the candle and going for my walk and
prayers. When I get back, I can proceed
with my time table.
Tuesdays will be different because I do
laundry and Fridays too because I clean
the house. the timetable is flexible.
Otherwise I should keep this morning
routine going and work on the afternoon
activities. Must press on. I have to
read, collage and colour and nap. Very
important the nap. After that I can watch
TV all I want.
Later I have dinner, clean up, shower,
crochet and use the computer. I pray to
God that He may help me with my routine.
I am very good with the morning routine.
I get out of bed knowing I have things to
do. I am glad I have the morning routine
figured out. Homerx you have been very
instrumental in my life and I thank you.
May God bless you.
It is a great improvement because I used
to sleep in to almost until noon or so.
Then I would not have breakfast. I had no
direction. No lunch. I would be mbae the
computer for hours. Dishes would be dirty
and that would bring me down. Now I do
something about it and as you said Homerx,
I feel better for it.
Right now I am at the club and going
for a lunch break in ten minutes.
Somebody called in sick and so I am at the
front desk all day. Extra cash doesn't
hurt. Thanks Jesus.
When I get home during my lunch break, I
will do the dishes, make sure my
sweetheart is recording my shows and I
will have some soup. Then I will be back
to work until 6:15pm. I love this job and
thank God for it.
How is the guest room coming along? Good
on you Homerx. If
you tidy up where you exercise, it will be
that much better for you. Cheers.
Wi chat later.
Love
Mson
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My lunch hour. Posted: 04-28-08 18:42pm
I got paid for half my shift and then
walked home. 10 minutes walk. I noticed
there was mail in the mail box. I have no
key to the mail box at home. So I went
upstairs and right away I was asking my
husband if he smoked the rest of my joint
and I was telling him that I have
something in the mail box and I knew I had
to eat and do the dishes. I was asking
him if he is taping my shows.
My husband said that I had a lot of energy
and he asked what I was excited about. I
told him I wanted to know what was in the
mail box. He put his hands on both my
sholdiers, looked me right into the eye
and gave me the keys and I went
downstairs and they were my stockings.
I started warming the soup. As the soup
was warming, I started on the dishes. I
did about 4 dishes.
If I had done the dishes last night no
matter what, my mind would have one less
thing to think about.
Then I had to sit down and eat as I had
only a few minutes left. As I was eating,
my husband would pass the joint. I was
starting to calm down.
Then I thought about it and asked him what
he meant when he said I had energy. He
said that I would ask him one thing and
before he answered I would ask him another
question. This man is the man for me.
He notices what other people may not see.
He doesn't sit on it, he lets it be
known.
Just goes to show why I do not have a full
time job. I asked my husband if I was
going crazy and he said no I was just full
of energy. What a sweet heart. I have an
hour and a half to go before end of my
shift.
Then it will be nice to go home. I
thanked my husband for being there for me.
He is a darling. As I was leaving, Chris
was coming in for a visit.
We haven't seen the girl who is visiting
since last night. I must say it is a
relief.
Till later
Love and light
Mson.
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Posted: 04-28-08 19:06pm
Mson, Yes, it is nice when someone knows
you so well...I am happy for you. So I am
waiting for Ricky to get home. i cooked a
chicken and mashed potatoes and corn and I
am about to eat with out him if he doesn't
hurry home because I am starved!! Hungry man...thats
me! Got the
munchies and I will give him 20 minutes
and then I will call him and tell him I am
going to eat with out him... When I get hungry
look out....no food is safe!!
I haven't heard from Bobbie or MA
today...hope you 2 are OK and just having
a good busy day and no time for the
computer.
Rick told me not to clean the guest room
until he gets home so he can help..he is
probably afraid I might throw something
away that he wants to save. Some times I
just have to get rid of stuff...too many
things weigh me down so i get rid of
things...give them to Salvation Army or
friends who need clothes or furniture...I
think less is more.
OK, I am going to call Rick and tell him
to come on and eat!!!!
Talk to you soon...have a great night.
Love and Hope and respect and life and
peace,
Homer
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Homerx. Posted: 04-28-08 19:32pm
You are too funny. You just want to eat.
I don't blame you. You made such an
excellent dinner. I am salivating over
here.
Cancer keep everything if you let them
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Love Mson
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It takes a lot for me to turn Posted: 04-28-08 20:15pm
But I am learning as I go along.
It is amazing the power Lee actually
thinks he holds over me. He is my
vineyard manager. Period. He said that
he would have two guys out here Thursday,
Friday then Saturday. They didn't show
up. So, I am out there digging up these
huge mustard plants that are so huge it
broke my shovel. Didn't answer the phone
all weekend. Then called me this morning
at 7:00 a.m. to say two guys would be
here.
Saturday, Mr. Martinez, my gardener was
here with a young assistant and seeing
Lee's lack of responsibility, asked him if
the young man could clear up the Viognier
vineyeard. He said my weed wacker was
broken but took it home with him and fixed
it.
Today the two guys were here giving the
new man a lot of grief for being here. I
heard that and told Carlos, you are here
working for me.
Then Lee calls and said, you actually had
another guy out there? I said yes. He
said, I will not send any of my guys out
to your ranch when we are fighting. I
said, we were not fighting. He said he
deliberately didn't send them out
Thursday, Friday or Saturday even though I
was expecting them to help me. Lee has to
know that he works for me. My hand signs
the checks and only if he is responsible.
He said, those are my babies, my plants.
I am the vine whisperer. Just give them
to me. Is this guy sick or what? Let him
pay the mortgage that I had to take out.
I told him, there are other vineyard
managers out there Lee. He tried to make
it my fault that I have questioned him on
the overage charges. He said this is his
place. Honestly. Where does this guy get
off the bus?
He has an invalid license. I had the
courage to ask for a copy today. He said,
WHAT! I said, by law I have the right.
He said right now he doesn't have one but
in a few days he will. Boy am I onto his
tale of lies.
Thanks Homer for opening my eyes.
My friend Joyce fired Lee months ago. She
also has a beautiful high end vineyard
selling expensive grapes. She tells me
not to be afraid. I can do it. This is,
after all, my property, and they are my
babies. Lot Lee's. Kind of scary how he
believes this somehow belongs to him.
Bobbie
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Bobbie Posted: 04-28-08 21:58pm
I will continue to pray for you as I get
the story better and better. You are
getting another manager and changing the
code. Right?
Always with love and light
Mson.
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Re: Bobbie Posted: 04-29-08 10:28am
Muthoni
wrote:
I will continue to pray for
you as I get the story better and better.
You are getting another manager and
changing the code. Right?
Always with love and light
Mson.
Yeah, Bobbie....is that right?????????
Say
yes!
Mson, thanks for the Cancer and Scorpio
website links....very interesting.
The Chicken was very good. Ricky got home
just in time. I
was about to devour everything!
I got on the treadmill for 30
minutes,Mson...I was listening to this
band called Green Day, they are one of my
favorites and the CD is called
Warning...its very good. Probably not for
every one but I love it. Its kind of punk
rock...they are a San Fransisco band....
Anyway, today is a new day and I am going
to do my best to make it a glorious one. I
cherish every day, even the bad ones.
Without bad days we might not appreciate
the good days right?
The puppies are so cute now. I can tell
them apart and they are getting there own
little personalities. SO cute!
I guess today I will go to the store down
the road for some milk and to the post
office. Bills bills bills...
but thats life I guess...$$$ comes and
then $$$ goes,right? thats the way it
goes...
OK, my friends...talk to you later.Have an
amazing prosperous day.
Love and wellness,
Homer
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Homerx and Bobbie. Posted: 04-29-08 15:13pm
Today I woke up at 8:45am and was having
trouble saying my devotion for I was soo
sleepy. I pressed on and I made it. Took
the laundry down and had a bowl of cereal.
When I put the clothes in the drier, I
decided to go for my morning walk instead
of being at the computer doing really
nothing much. I prayed as usual for your
blessings and that our feet may follow the
right path.
I got home in time to get the laundry.
Then I did my skipping of the rope, did a
smudge and lit the candle. I put the
dishes I did last night away. What a
great feeling waking up to a clean
kitchen.
The next thing I had to do was read for 45
minutes. The book is mbae a preacher Joel
Osteen. It is called "How to become a
better you." The chapter I read today was
about giving our dreams a new beginning.
We should not settle for good enough. God
has put in each one of us a seed. When
one door closes, another opens. When all
doors are closed, a window will open.
Right now I am on my lunch break. I am
having a sandwich. Taking care of myself
is a full time job particularly Monday to
Saturday morning. I have to put time and
effort. It is not enough to have a
timetable but I must follow it. It is
crafts time now. Collage for half hour
and colouring for another half hour. If I
wasn't going to work this afternoon I
would have had a nap after the colouring
but I am going to smoke a J instead at
2:00pm. First one for the day. And head
to work at 2:20pm
Time flies when one is having fun. I
better get to my activities as time is
slipping.
Thanks for your prayers. I feel I can
endure a lot but it is the mind trips and
control that give me pause. Every time I
try to get this person to leave, he won't.
Somehow he has it in his head these
babies belong to him.
I want the new vineyard manager. He is
legitimate. He has his proper license,
insurance, is a vineyard labor contractor
and I know I can work with him in a good
way.
But, when I try to have the other man
leave, he lays a trip on me of how he
planted this, and I can't make him give up
his babies. Please don't make me give up
my babies.
Homer said this is mind playing/tripping.
It has to be because it makes me very
unhappy and I don't quite know how to make
it stop. Even my gate now is somehow
broken down there and has to remain open.
Talk about strange. My gate person is in
Northern California but will be home
tomorrow to check it out.
This is so very unhealthy, especially
dealing with the HPV. I don't need this
and wish it would just go away. It is so
hard for me to be cruel and unkind. I
would think saying it is not possible to
work together would have worked. It
hasn't. I am quite beside myself to know
what to do.
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Posted: 05-01-08 11:43am
Bobbie, you are going to have to be
stronger and more assertive with Lee..what
you are doing is not working for you. The
time has come to be STRONG and to stick
with your convictions and to nip this in
the bud!!!!
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Right Homer Posted: 05-01-08 19:21pm
Then I look around and not happy with the
entire outcome of this whole development.
He is now the one begging like a lost
little puppy. He is the one who is going
to look like a fool. How come I got rid
of him on this beautiful vineyard? Sorry.
He made his choices. He seems to
deliberately set up people who care for
him, only to abandone them, then say what
happened? Guess he has to figure it out.
I am not holding his hand here anymore.
Nor listening to his feel sorry for me
stories. Over. Finito.
I still believe let him work overtime to
correct some of these mistakes. I know I
will never get my money back on the
overages but we have a lot of major things
to do in the next few months on the new
vineyards. We have to train the plants
and get them on the cardoin.
My basic feeling is to let him work
overtime on doing this right. Get through
harvest. Then it is goodbye time. I
don't have to do anything until next year,
January or February. Why should I be
paying management for anybody when they
basically aren't doing anything from
September until then.
At that point, it is time for a whole new
beginning. I have already discussed this
with the President of our grape grower's
association. He feels it is a good plan.
Then start fresh.
It is much more than just that personal
thing between us Homer. I have buried
that in my heart. My gate is fixed. I
will survive. Don't you doubt that for a
moment. Bobbie is a survivor.
I
know it is sad and confusing but you
should not have to hide your cereal or
anything else in your own home. 
Where did the week end go??? 
I am a lucky man.
Oh well, today is a new day and everything
is going to be alright.
but it has
been a long time since I seen him so down.
I prayed for him. It is all I could do.
It
was one box with several things in it. Let
me know when you get it.
Homerx. If
you tidy up where you exercise, it will be
that much better for you. Cheers.
Hungry man...thats
me! 
When I get hungry
look out....no food is safe!! 
