Ok, Bobbie, sorry your day sucks so far it will get better..keep us posted, we are thinking about you.

I love this game Homerx. If you do 10 minutes extra a day, I will do 150 jumps. I feel I can do this. And I will keep increasing if you increase. We start tomorrow OK?

You are such a motivator Homerx. Yes motivation. That is what attracted me to you. That is what I saw in you when I joined the forums. You don't give up. And because you don't give up, I will not give up. God bless you. I know you have 8 years of earthly experience more than me and I know I can learn from you.

Let's do this thing
LOVE
Mson

OK! So you want to up the bar do you? Thats my girl! Its a deal....an extra 10 minutes for me and 150 for you...deal! But, do not over do it because I do not want you to hurt yourself or strain too hard, OK? OK! Lets do this thing!!!!
You rock, my Princess!!
XOXO, Homer
your friend for ever...from this life and into the next!

I missed you Bobbie. Wasn't sure what was going on and so I decided not to bother you with a PM. Oh well.

And now Lord Jesus, I pray for Bobbie. I lift her up to you my Lord. Matters concerning her house. You know about those french doors and how they lick. Lord you know how many thousands of dollars Bobbie has used to repair her house and you know how much more she needs. Lord help her. Protect her from these people she is dealing with. You are the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. You knew Bobbie even before she was formed in her mother's womb. Help her Lord. As you know, Walter her beloved husband has been lifted to glory. Fill the void that was left Lord.

Let there not be confusion and blame Lord. Father you are God and I call upon you to help Bobbie in everyway. She is a widow and these people should not be like that to her. This whole thing is affecting her and ruining her day. Give her joy Lord. No matter what happens let her know that she is beautiful and strong and blessed. and loved.

In Jesus name
AMEN

For that beautiful and heartfelt prayer. I always know when you pray for me and you pray in such a true and pure way that God for sure listens to your prayer.

I consider myself blessed being on the same earth at the same time as you and Homer, Ma and all the good people of faith on this forum.

This whole thing just comes down to the blame game and trying to shove it onto somebody else. Now this company wants to tear up even more of my house so they can hopefully blame my contractor. I am not going to go there. They are so rich, this company, they go in and buy up companies for pennies on the dollars to get the factories. All over the world. But, you know about all that I am sure. It is all about the bottom line.

For us, let us not be drawn into that visious cycle. You have gained your independence by moving from Kenya to Canada and have made great contributions to educating people. Have you thought about going back to school to become a teacher/professor Mson? You already are doing it. Maybe one of these days they will give you an honorary degree. Think about it. That is something a person earns through their accomplishments of helping their fellow man. Sounds like you would fit that bill. Homer, too. He is just too sweet a man. Don't see many like Homer around the planet anymore.

Homer, I TOTALLY love your avatar. Peace to the planet. You have to help me pick out something appropriate. At first I thought my babies, my grape vines, but they are only a small part of who I am. Help me out here Homer, my friend. Ideas?

Love,

Bobbie

Thanks for all the kind words.

I would go to school right now but it would be too costly as a foreign students. I take free courses here and there. The last two were University classes. Humanities and Social Sciences. I want to go back to school as soon as I get my permanent resident papers. Then I can get a school loan. I want to do counseling. Mostly I would like to counsel my family especially my mother. I would like to counsel all that have been raped. Men and women alike. That is the job I would like to do. Otherwise I might take a short course to get money. I am tired of cleaning.

You think I would do well in school eh? Thanks Bobbie.

It is just starting to dawn on me what a huge step it was to leave Kenya at 27 years old and leaving a child behind. If I did not have God present the right steps for me to take, I would not be in Canada getting better. I would have rot a long time a ago. But God is real my dear. I am believing Him more and more even as you and Homerx and others pray for me. And help me see through your eyes.

I am humbled mbae my whole experience. Yes the past is gone but I have memories. Some fond, some not so fond. But life goes on Bobbie. Termites and leaking this and leaking that. All in all, life goes on. You continue to breath and your babies keep on growing. And people keep renting your space that you have. I think.

Beloved husband gave me a choice of ground beef or Chinese food. Then I remembered that Ricky might have been taking home Chinese food. I chose Chinese food. We are walking there. We are forming real connections because we have real love.

When writing here I am myself more than when I was writing to my family. I stopped writing to them three times a week. I was starting to repeat myself and I thought that was boring. They know my routine for I told it to them for 6 months. The more I told them, the more I did. If they write, I will write back. My family has taught me patient. They never wrote back but I kept writing. Some wrote back after many months had gone mbae. I am not performing so that I can write later. I am living life. And that is the difference between when I wrote home and writing to Homerx. With Homerx, I am myself. I feel comfortable here. Hopefullly THEY don't delete it. Not you Homerx.

Bobbie, I have been on a forum for almost 4 years before and I have gathered so much from here and I have only been here two months or so. I have made friends here, I feel loved and welcomed. That other forum closed and now I am here getting blessed, enjoying love and something for me to wake up to. Something extra.

Bobbie, it is like that girl Nancy that I met yesterday. She was crying because she did not have anything to wake up to. How sad is that...

We are off for Chinese food.

LOVE
Mson

I repeat these loving words that Mson gave to you,Lord, and I pray to you with an open heart that you lift Bobbie up in her time of anguish and stress and carry her weight. Show her the answer to the questions of how and why. Thank you for inspiring Mscon to share her loving graceful words of devotion and faith with me and with others. That you for bringing this little group of misfits and old souls together so that we can find faith and comfort in each other.AMEN!
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Msn, let me know what kind of Chinese you order..I had Lemon Chicken, fried rise and egg rolls...YUMMY! I am so full...and my fortune cookie said "Don't let unexpected situations throw you". Bobbie, that would have been a good one for you also!
Tomorrow I walk on the treadmill for 30 minutes...how many jumps for Mson I wonder???? OK, have sweet dreams..good night.
Oh, and Bobbie, I can send you the link to the Avatar site I like...can you attach it or do you need my help? I will PM you.
Night.

You pray real good. God bless you and hear all your prayers.

I was wondering what your fortune cookie said. Mine is so true. "The joys of leisure time will be yours." What with the cable. Tomorrow I will wake up and do 150 jumps on the rope and that is right, you will walk on the treadmill for 30 minutes. DEAL!

My Chinese food was fried rice, chop suey and sweet and sour ribs. Beloved husband ordered a different combo.

Beloved husband gets his massage tonight. I am just listening to music, finish my beer and head to bed.

LOVE
Mson.

Just to read your amazing words of encouragement!!!!!!! Love you both to bits.

Mson, you are an amazing, fearless, intelligent woman. Nothing has or ever will knock you down. You will always wind up standing and standing tall.

A good student? Without a doubt. I will be happy to hear you say you residency is confirmed and you can go back to school. The sky is the limit Mson. You could even wind up with a PhD. Always keep your eye on the prize. When you think about our paths on this living earth and the chances that somehow we are guided this way or that only to keep going forward toward our real destinies, I know that God really and absolutely has us in the palm of his hands. We are his beloved. Can you even imagine a person not knowing that? Feeling God working in their lives?

Life is not a day at the beach. It would be downright boring if we woke up every day to a perfect world, a perfect life. Then, what exactly would you want to strive for? Where would the challenge to work out problems be? They say people who keep having passion in their lives, be it work, love, just things they want to achieve, live a lot longer.

Homer please send that information to me. It sounds like we are on the same page even with food. Maybe one of the reasons I so love communicating with you both. I am into good food big time. Nothing in the world I enjoy more than cooking for my family, friends and especially my dear Walter. He used to call this Roberta's Kitchen. I would let him choose what he wanted to have for dinner every night. Loved that. He was not a big leftover baby. Had to have it fresh. Bless His Heart.

Take care,

Love,

Bobbie

Boobie, I will get back to you.

I have to rush out to see a girlfriend for a walk but wanted to tell Homerx that I did 150 jumps. Homerx, did you walk 30 minutes? I not only jump but I also walk about 45 minutes a day. When I joined here, all I did was walk. And I hated it. Now I love it. I had forgotten to jump rope for a long time. It makes me feel good doing these exercises. Thanks for your motivation and I am waiting to hear how long you walked. Like you told me, do not over do it.

Always with love
Mson.

I walked 30 minutes and then I went to shower and to the store...it felt good! I LOVE walking, especially in the City...it isn't much fun walking here, hot usually and bugs and nothing to look at...so its the treadmill with my mp3 in my ear and looking out the window...I will start with the weights on Monday and get me a jump rope, I was the jump rope King in grade school, I won a gold ribbon and everything...( or is that the jump rope Queen???) Nah, its King!!!! I'm the MAN!
Its Saturday night and Ricky went to help a co worker change her tire or battery or something?and I was going to go but wanted to stay home sense I was gone most of the day, plus I have to keep an eye on the babies, they have there eyes open now and are going to be able to get out of there little shelter soon...have to do something about it tomorrow...
hope you all have a great night...LOVE YOU!
Homer

did you check out the avatars???? apply one, i want to C what you pick!!!!

Today it was so cold and windy. I was thankful I listened to Lee's advise to let two men come out to do the replants.

I want to thank you for the avatar site but will have to search it out tomorrow.

Today was hard enough. Even though you think I have made a mistake in trying to help Lee, he does have a lot on his plate too. Only he can eat it or take care of it. We accept these challenges, when we come onto the earth, and have to each and every one of us work them out.

I am just standing here on the sidelines wishing things could be better for all concerned. You know what I mean Homer. But, it is not my call.

I love you guys. Kisses to your dear little ones, little eyes open saying, "here is our mommy and mommy and daddy!

Do you have any idea how much hope and true encouragement you give with your honest and heartfelt responses Homer and Mson? You are just so honest, open and giving, it probably doesn't even register what it means to people. But, it must.

I love this forum. Just so many kind and good people who care.

Love,

Bobbie

Today is two months since I joined these forums. I have found love, encouragement, care - just in this one topic.

My girlfriend and I went to the labyrinth. She is girlfriend to the boss at the MJ club :mr.green: We work together. We went to the club and she did a spiral braid on my hair. Looks nice but I don't think it will last long. I had a good visit.

Went to the market and got a loaf of bread, sandwich meat and cereal. You can tell I am taking care of myself. "Give us this day our daily bread. I am grateful that I can afford to have breakfast, lunch and dinner. For a long time I ignored meals. No wonder I went crazy. Overworking the brain and not eating. *let me get some more water* Beloved husband just saw me coming with the water and he said, "It is good to drink water Baby." That is nice.

What I have realized is that if I do one thing towards health, it opens up other doors for improvement. But I have had great encouragement from you, Homerx and others and that has kept me going. I don't want to go to the mental hospital again. I have been there six times. Panic attacks and all. I must therefore keep healthy overall for my AIDS too. I am so glad glad I met Homerx coz I needed such a friend who knows which of my shoe pinches. You know what I mean?

Bobbie, thanks very much for your encouragement and your kinds words. We see in others what is in us - or something like that. The idea of reflecting of each other. You possess those things you told me because otherwise how would you know? Fearless...

I am very happy to have cable but there doesn't to be much on the weekend. I really like Vision TV. Today they were focusing on Pakistan and speaking the language. It was interesting. During the week I watch Dr Phil and Oprah and the news. The fastest three hours of my life. I have to change my timetable around. My life is changing fast for the better.

Still praying for you.

Love
Mson.

I believe in the goodness of people, their ability to reach their highest level of achievement and it is only by their willingness to fight their way to the top, swim as hard as they can, struggle to survive, by their own acceptance that it is them and only them who can make it happen, then they will reach what they are meant to achieve.

Some of us are stronger than others. For those who have somebody standing with a boot on their throat, both literally and moniterially, it is a hard row to hoe.

Sometimes, people feel they own you and you owe them and it is a life sentence. Some people, no matter how good their life is or what they have in the physical world as far as wealth, it is just not enough. It must be a really hard decision to get out of a terrible relationship.

The retaliation from the family can be horrible. Wonder if they can ever see it that way.

I know Homer you say I have a soft heart. I have a heart that can forgive and I believe that is one of my best assets. Like you and Mson. To love is great and to forgive is divine.

Love to you dear friends.

Bobbie

Been doing more research. Know that I will do my best on this problem with the house. Talked to Mark and told him I feel blessed finding this out sooner than later. Also reading the fine print on the excuses these window people use. Follow their instructions on installing the windows. How is that possible when they didn't even own or manufacture the windows in the first place? I will not tear out any more of my house. It is their problem. They have already agreed to send me new windows. That alone is accepted responsibility.

Bobbie, got my wine and olive oil today.... The olive oil bottle is so gorgeous that I don't want to use it...I just want to look at it and enjoy it for a bit! Thank you for the brochure's and catalog and all...thank you thank you! I am SO excited...I may have a glass of wine tonight...or maybe I will wait for the week end...anyway, got it, thank you

It is awesome to see friendship grow to a point of sincere gifts.

I was up at 8:45am. I did my devotion. I thought there would be something nice on Vision TV but nothing to my interest. I came downstairs and did a hundred and fifty jumps! I am already getting used to it and hoping that Homerx you are doing 30 minute walks on your treadmill.

We were supposed to do our taxes today but beloved husband (BH) says he needs to fix his computer. Men and their toys. So I suggested that we do them tomorrow morning. He agreed.

I have lit the candle for the day, made the bed, had cereal and now I am having tea. I have done the smudge as well. This is where I light sage and say the following prayer. "May my hands do good work, may my eyes see you, may my ears hear you, may my mouth speak the truth. May my heart be connected to you. Bless the womb the fruit of life. May my feet walk in the right direction." That was the initial prayer that I was taught mbae a Native American. Then I added my own. "The blood of Jesus upon me, the blood of Jesus upon BH, the blood of Jesus upon family, the blood of Jesus upon extended family. The blood of Jesus upon friends, the blood of Jesus upon forum people. The blood of Jesus upon the people of Kenya. The blood of Jesus upon the people on the earth. The blood of Jesus upon the Earth. The blood of Jesus upon the Universe." It takes about two minutes of my life to do the smudge. Sometimes I get behind in the smudge department but I am now ready to do smudges more often.

BH is wearing a Kenya t shirt and so I gave him a compliment on how good he looks. Compliments are great. Compliments increase self worth. My BH always compliments me. He makes me feel good. We have known each other since 9 years ago - 1999. He is a Scorpio, I am a Cancer. A match made in heaven. I like astrology and was actually looking for a Scorpio. I looked among my friends and there was BH. We were intimate for the first time on 29 June, 03. It was a new moon. In four months I was engaged 10 October 2003 and we were joined in holy matrimony in 05. He is the life and love on my life. He shops, takes the garbage out and cooks. I do dishes, laundry and housekeeping. We share the kitty litter and other chores. He gets the mail, I pay the bills, he puts water on the cooler...he is very helpful around the house. We did not always know how to live together but we have worked our way up from where we were before. We feel we have a home. Love rules around here. Everyday, we appreciate each other more.

From here I am going to go to the employment office to return last months stub. Then I will go to the labyrinth. I will try and tidy up the house. I am yet to dust. My duty right now is to smoke a J with BH. My friend John is coming to visit at 1:00pm. We know each other from the MJ club I will be watching TV later on. Thanks for your prayers you guys. I am not just going through my day but I am enjoying it. I can feel changes in me. I am no longer weak and tired. Thank you Jesus. The more I exercise, the better I feel.

Homerx, enjoy your gifts from Bobbie. Thanks for your motivation. My hero. You have so much to offer. You have brought joy to my heart.

Bobbie, I am glad you are putting your foot down and saying no more tearing down of the home. I am glad you are getting new windows. May God continue to help you. So wonderful for your son Mark to be there for you. My prayers are with you and I feel something good is going to happen.

Love always,
Mson.

Mson, thank you for the sweet and uplifting words. I love Bobbie and know she loves me but I purchased the wine and olive oil as that is how she makes her living and I wanted to taste her products...but i am sure she would have given me a taste had I asked!!! But I am happy to help her out by purchasing her excellent products....
I was going to go to town today but I am going to have to wait till tomorrow. My doctor is very busy on Mondays and has asked that I weight if it isn't urgent...and it isn't, just was going to get my finger pricked and give her some drugs that I don't take any more so that she could pass them on to some one who could use them. I don't take Combavear or Sustiva any more and I also have some Marinol I can give her and those are expensive drugs and the poor people in town could always use the extra help. I don't need them and I want them to be used..
The puppies are all doing well and getting big..eyes are all opened. So cute..
OK, Glad Mson is doing 150 jumps now...that is excellent.
I need to get to it, the day is slipping away and I haven't done much of anything.... so I best get with it and get busy...talk to you all later..
xoxo,homer

Even if you paid for it, it is a gift . Sorry I assumed things.

No biggie...your right...it is! Oh, I haven't walked on the treadmill today at all... I feel SO lazy 2 day...I will make up for not walking I promise, I just had to confess... forgive me, my Queen