Used to say you never know when God puts an angel in front of you to test your kindness.

We lived on a farm/ranch in Kansas which had a railroad that crossed through it. Many times, these homeless men riding the railroads would come up to our kitchen door and ask for food. It didn't matter what my mother was doing, she would stop and cook them a big meal. That is one of the most wonderful things I remember about her.

Good for you both. You are actually living your faith through goodness to others.

Please post my comments to the Marijuina Debate Forum. Even here in California where the law has been passed to have clinics dispense marijuina for medicinal use with a doctor's prescription, still there is great resistance. As I have told you before, think Orange County Republicans.

The fact is, for the most part, people believe they are invincible and will never really get sick, let alone die. You would think as someone gets older, reality would set in.

How is it that there are so many incredible herbs and plants on this planet for healing? If God put them here, and native people know their effectivness and have known it for ages, why shouldn't we use it for our benefit?

Bobbie

I'm sorry I haven't been here lately, everyone. (although I probably just bore you guys anyway...sorry, I mean I probably just seem like another stupid, self-absorbed little teenage brat). I have approximately one month to lift my TERRIBLE grades up for school, and add to the HIV and thryoid test results on the 10th...That is REALLY driving me nuts...I'm just overloaded with anxiety and depression, which makes it hard to focus on anything or talk to anyone...

Sorry you guys...I love you all and I have NOT forgotten about any of you!!!!

Love,
MA

MA who cares for one another. It is always good to know what is going on with you. The very fact that you are on eHealth Forum shows that you care and want a healthy lifestyle.

Good luck on your tests on the 10th. We will all hold you up.

Bobbie

Homerx,

At the office they were laughing at me. I could hardly walk. I tried to run to work but it was not happening. I was late. No high heels for me.

Thanks for your kind words.

Today I haven't skip rope. I will do it right away because I read somewhere that you were inspired mbae me. You inspire me, I inspire you. Ok. Rope skipping. 6:21pm...6:23 pm I am back. It only takes two minutes of my life to do a hundred jumps on that rope. I didn't know that.

I haven't done my smudge today. I will get to it right away. 6:25pm...6:27pm. Another two minutes. I am going to devote the first five minutes of the day doing meditation, smudge and skipping rope. Then I can have breakfast and some computer time and go on with the day from there. I can change my life in a second.

Internet is back and we also have cable. I was upstairs watching Dr Phil and Oprah. I am that kind of a girl. I am going to change my timetable around. The present timetable I started five days after joining here but things have changed now like TV is a big deal. No more boredom that is for sure. I have grown since the last timetable.

Thanks for being there for me.

Glad to hear that your arm is getting better. May you heal completely. I am glad you had time to recuperate. Very important.

My brother Kenneth was asking me if I am loaded financially. In those words. He then explained that he needed about $50 Canadian to apply for a passport. He is trying to go to Britain. I was going to say flat out no then one of my cards increased my limit mbae $1000. Then phone rang and it was the AIDS office. They wanted me to do a presentation up island on the 11th of this month. The pay $25 per presentation. If I do the presentation, I will send him the money. I think there are two presentations. People in Kenya do not understand that one can be poor abroad. I know that I cannot give what I do not have. Like giving from credit no matter who much an increase in limit one gets. Even my mother told me that. You have to take care of yourself first, she said.

Transportation may be a problem to go to up island but I am praying to God that it all works out. I leave everything to God in prayer. A little money here goes a long ways there. I am counting on those presentations so please pray that I am able to attend. It is a Friday so I must be back to town for my shift at the club.

Love,
Mson.

Miss Anonymous,

You are not boring and as Bobbie has said, we are a caring family. Do you pray? Meditate? I taught some children in a school and two of them told me that my late daughter was their invisible friend. Maybe you can have an invisible friend and talk to him or her. It is like praying. Talking to the invisible.

Prayer has helped me since the beginning of last year. I just talk about my family, my parents, those who have gone before us, forum members, immigration, my friends. From my heart to God's. Or whatever you perceive IT to be.

I pray for you daily but Sunday when I rest and reflect on the week.

Always nice to hear from you.

Love always.

Mson

Hello all my friends...geez, what a night! Chache is still keeping me up with her wanting to go out and eat and the puppies... I don't feel like I even slept last night!!
Mson, that is very sweet of you to take your hard earned $$ and give to your brother...that is if you can do it. If you cant afford it then don't do it. You cant cut your self short. Make sure you take care of you and BH before you try to give $$ to others. If you can afford it then fine but don't do it if it is going to be a hardship on you.
Bobbie, you are right. God put those herbs and plants on this planet to help us. The Republican Right can be such rigid people..that is what bugs me about them. It isn't enough to control there own lives, they have to control ours also!
P.S. Today is Doris Days 84th birthday. I met her one time in Carmel By The Sea, you probably know where that is, Bobbie, down by Monterey...anyway, I met her at Albertsons Grocery Store and she was so sweet to me. So Happy Birthday Doris...she is my favorite actress of all time. ..and she was good friends with Rock Hudson, one of my heroes!

Sorry you have not had much sleep. It is the joy of parenthood. Poor Ricky.

Thanks very much Homerx for your advice. I even remember my mother telling me that my beloved husband is more family to me than them.

Did I tell you? I called my mother the other day and she said she had tea cooking and so gave the phone to my father. Then after a while I asked if Mami was ready to talk on the phone and she came on and said she was doing dishes. She did mention that she is raising commercial chicken. Then she gave the phone to a neighbour who was complaining about the financial situation at his home. They think abroad means money. I told him I will be praying for him. Is all I can do.

I don't know when I will call my mother again. I will continue to pray for her that her heart may be healed completely. I have to mbae $5 calling cards to call and then I get this kind of treatment? I can use the 5$ to do something else. Like mbae fruit.

This morning I woke up well. Beautiful day that the Lord has made. I did my meditation, skipped rope and did the smudge. I arranged that last night as I was typing my above post. I have had cereal. Since the 25th of February 2008, I have been having breakfast. Before that, rarely. I was so bad before when I was taking morning medication I would take the meds with one miserable sip of water. I was in bad shape. I would not eat lunch only dinner and even then no appetite. Now things have changed and I thank EHealth forum, you, Bobbie and others.

Now that I have found you through Ehealth forum my life has improved and I have more people to pray for. The law of attraction is real.

I have to start getting ready to go to the MJ club for work.

Thanks for your advice. It is true I cannot give what I don't have. I thought the increase in credit meant I have more money but it only means I have more credit. That is not money, that is debt about to happen. I am not going to borrow so that I can send to him. I worked very hard while in Kenya to earn a living and he is a man, he can work twice as hard. And he is not a single parent. These are the things I think about when I hear "Are you loaded financially."

Gotta get ready fast.

Love
Mson.

I remembered to light the candle this morning. For God, Jesus, Holy Spirit. Those who have died before us, those who have died from AIDS and homicide...

Work was excellent. My friend Steve quit working there. The boss said I am number two counting the oldest people there. I always pray to God as I go to work that I may perform well. I want to work there for as long as the government is looking the other way. The MJ club

I went to the labyrinth and prayed for family and friends. I wonder how Bobbie is doing. I was going to PM her then I thought I might be intruding.

From the labyrinth I went to the market and got pineapple juice and kitty litter stuff. I met with a friend called Nancy. She has not found a place to live but she is in a hotel. She was crying saying she has nothing to wake up to. That is sad. I told her that I will be praying for her. I have already started praying for her. I pleaded with her not to lose hope. Tears were just falling. Poor lady.

She reminded me that I have something to wake up to. Very fortunate to have my beloved husband and a cat Gandalf to wake up to. I like waking up to myself as well. She really made me think. I thank God that I love life enough to get out of bed.

From there as I was about to enter the Shoppers Drug Mart, a man from the club said hey. I said God is good and he said that God is good all the time. Then he said that we not only live in Canada, but we live in the best part of Canada. Again this man made me think. How did a miserable girl like me get here from Kenya? It is God. Thanks Jesus. It humbles me that I am here. There is a song that says, Njisu, Baba uhunio, waku nduri mihaka It is my language Gikuyu saying Jesus your healing has no boundaries. Very true.

I am enjoying fresh water my drink of choice for the night. Yummy.

Came home and had lunch. Beloved husband wanted me to do something for him and I asked if he could wait because I wanted to watch Oprah and then the news. I had seen a news preview that there was a pregnant man in the world. I wasn't going to miss that for the world. So nice to have cable. Last time I had cable was in 2001. So when I went to watch Oprah, it was the story of the pregnant man. Born as a girl, breasts were removed but the reproductive organs were left intact by choice. Through artificial insemination, he got pregnant. He is six months pregnant and carrying a baby girl. This is a second pregnancy. The first one failed. But that did not stop Nancy and Thomas.

There was no point watching the news and so I did what my beloved husband wanted...hot passionate love... in the day!

YEAH! It is Friday and I am so glad...Ricky will be home this weekend and he can take care of all these dogs for a while. They are wearing me out.
Too many!!!!
It rained again last night...ug! I hate driving Ricks pick up when it has been raining. I prefer my little car. Oh well, I have to go to the store and here and there so I guess I better get to it...I don't feel like going anywhere today with the weather like it is...maybe I will have a cup of coffee first and see what the weather is going to do. If it continues to be nasty out then I will wait and go tomorrow, although I wanted to go by the doctors office and they are closed tomorrow! I guess I better just have my coffee and then shower and go and get it over with.... talk to you later....Mscon glad you and BH had a HOT night!!

ONE

One song can spark a moment,
One flower can wake the dream.
One tree can start a forest,
One bird can herald spring.

One smile begins a friendship,
One handclasp lifts a soul.
One star can guide a ship at sea,
One word can frame the goal

One vote can change a nation,
One sunbeam lights a room
One candle wipes out darkness, One laugh will conquer gloom.

One step must start each journey.
One word must sta t each prayer.
One hope will raise our spirits; One touch can show you care.

One voice can speak with wisdom,
One heart can know what's true,
One life can make a difference, You see, it's up to you!

If you look at what you do not have in life, you don't have anything,
If you look at what you have in life, you have everything.. .

It is a lot of work to take care of puppies. All that cleaning up can get to you. Don't worry Homerx, when they are gone you will miss them and then you will get over it.

You guys are lucky to have a car and a truck. We have four feet between us and a bus pass each. Neither I nor Beloved husband (BH) knows how to drive.

Hope you enjoy your cup of coffee and do today what you would have done tomorrow. My (BH) is taking me out for coffee (I actually don't drink coffee) but will have tea or something. It is a new coffee shop he has discovered. He loves his espresso.

You make me laugh Homerx . Could not wait to get to the computer this morning. I wasn't sure anybody would have commented on the love thing but you did. I love you - Mson.

Well, it is raining way to hard to go anywhere. I called Rick at work and told him that I would go tomorrow, I am afraid to drive in the poring rain... But thats OK, Ricky can watch the dogs and puppies tomorrow and that will give me a break. I will take my time and enjoy shopping alone.
Yes, Mson, I know what you mean about no car. When I lived in the City I did not have a car and did not need a car. I got around on cable cars, subway, trolley cars and buss...no need for a car but out here in the middle of nowhere you must have a car because there is no mass transit to rely on.
Anyway, I better get to cleaning this house since I will be staying home all day. Talk to you soon.
Love,homer

Very nice!!! and so true...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sdqi5XLkxr4

I love you all...my friends...
xoxo,Steve/Homer

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you
And if I should ever go away-ay
Well then close your eyes and try
Feel the way we do today
And then if you can remember

Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me-ee, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more-ore
That's what friends are for

Well you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you
Woh, and then for the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
The words are comin' from my heart
And then if you can remember

Oh-oh, keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
In good times, in bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
Oh-oh, that's what friends are for, oh-oh-oh

Woh-oh-oh, keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for-or-or-or
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more-ore-ore-ore-ore
That's what friends are for-or-or-or-or

Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, that's for sure
'Cause I tell ya, that's what friends are for
For good times and the bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for
That's what friends are for, hah-hah, yeah

Great music. Thanks very much. I enjoyed listening to every word. That's what friends are for.

I am glad you did not risk going out in that rain if you are not comfortable.. Does Ricky have your car? You are right about being in the city without a car. No sweat. Sometimes I feel like we are left behind but you put me straight. We don't need a car in the city. Everywhere we need to go is within walking distance and otherwise we can take a bus. You are a wise and good man Homerx.

We have been to coffee. I had a hot chocolate and a bread type of thing which I cannot spell. Croissant? They had creatively put a leaf on the hot chocolate but I told my beloved husband (BH) that it was a vulva. We laughed so hard. I am a naughty girl when I want to be.

From there we went to the post office to pay our PO Box. It is now up to over $200 for a year. We used SAN FAN's credit to pay it off. Then I went to the tailor's while BH went to mbae some cords for the computer. I went to pick BH's pants which needed repair in the pockets. Four pockets cost around $30 in total. I told him this is the last time I going to the tailor's with those pants. I have been there once before. That time he wanted the pockets to be made deep. This time the pockets that were made deep were torn. It is too expensive and I think it is better to mbae new pants.

When I walked outside of the tailor's, I saw Jeremiah. He has been my friend since the beginning of 2000. We were remembering how skinny he used to be. He is a big guy now and he says it is because of God. I told him how God has helped me too. I no longer worry about yesterday or tomorrow, I am just happy to be in the present. He too has bi polar and is taking epival for it. I really enjoyed talking to Jeremiah and then I came home to find that BH was already home.

Homerx, it is my day to clean as well. I am going to get to it right away.

Have a blessed day and thanks again for the song Family Vision - Dionne Warwick & Friends

LOVE
Mson

I am glad you enjoyed the song. It was written as a tribute to friends with AIDS and all the money that was made from the song went to AIDS research...nice,huh?

I really enjoyed that song and I will listen to it again tonight. It tells me to keep smiling. I like that. It is telling you to keep smiling...it tells Bobbie to keep smiling...telling Miss anonymous to keep smiling. Can't beat that.

You gave me inspiration to clean my dear. I started with the bathroom, did the tub, the toilet and the sink. Then I washed the few dishes that were there and swept and cleaned the kitchen floor. Then I washed the bathroom floor and it was time to vacuum. I will dust tomorrow. The hard part is over.

How much did you get done? With the puppies it must be hard to get much done. Hang in there kido, it will get easier.

It is 2:00pm here. I am heading to work soon. I will smoke my first J for the day and put myself together for work. I will go mbae the salvation army to drop off those high heeled boots and a lotion that I won't use. Too much scent. Mother in law bought it for me for Christmas. Oh well.

I will spend sometime watching the daily show with my beloved husband. Then I will be off to work. On second thoughts, I will go mbae the salvation army on Monday. I will go through our clothes to find out what else we can donate...

Long live Homerx
LOVE
Mson.

Your e mails always leave me with a smile..
I did laundry, swept and moped, took out the trash, emptied the dish washer, fed all the dogs and myself, had chicken and rice soup with crackers...yumm...its raining here and chicken and rice soup warms me up...comfort food. Lets see, what else? I made the bed, cleaned the bathroom, floor, toilet and tub and counter...I didn't walk on the treadmill today yet...how about this...if I walk an extra 10 minutes a day, you jump rope for 120 instead of 100...is that a deal? Can you do that? If not then thats ok..I usually walk for 20 minutes and lift weights for how ever long until my arms are burning...I need to jump rope too...I loved doing that when I was a kid, maybe I will by a jump rope! Its good for the heart...see, you inspired me, Mson...! we work well together!
maybe I will stop for today and role a J for myself and watch a movie and take it EZ the rest of the day. I think I have done enough chores..of course the J will make me hungry and thats good, I could eat since I only had soup. I think Ricky is bringing home Chinese food, lemon chicken...yummm OK, I guess I will find a movie to watch...
Keep smiling
keep shining
knowing you can always count on me...for sure
cuz thats what friends are for!!!

Yesterday was really hard as I finally got back in touch with the window people. The guy was so hateful. Just outright told me they were not going to do anything about the leaking french doors. Had to be installation. Problem is they have absolutely NO credibility. They always make the same excuse. Blame the contractor. Kind of put me off on my day. I will have to decide what to do.

Love that love life of your's Mson and BH. You are blessed.

Homer, you will be fine. You are in the early stages of parenthood. They can keep you up day and night. Take care,

Love,

Bobbie

Hope you are doing OK today, I haven't heard from you...hope Lee isn't messing with your head any more..=(
We are waiting for the wine and olive oil...as soon as it gets here we are having your fish dish with wine...yummm...