Sexual abuse? Are you ok!! I hope it wasn't too serious
I do find that when I drink, my mood tends to switch from depression to manic and vice versa, depending on what my mood is like at that point. I don't blank out per-say, unless I put my head down for even a moment then I would be out-cold till the middle of the next day.
Feeling manic and excitable & low at the same time...? I get that too...it's the most irretating frustrating thing...I hate it...it just bogs down my WHOLE thaught process...
If I understand it correctly, prozac is for the depression and tiazepam is for the anxiety. It might not be all that harsh, depending on your dose. But alcahol and anti-depressants/anti-anxiety med's is a dangerous mix. I tend to only drink when I'm at family gatherings and then just to be social, so I know that if something happens, I'm in a safe situation.
I truely hope you are doing ok.