I am so sorry for what you are going through. My husband (44yrs old) is going through the same thing. He has been unable to walk since the middle of Dec. 2007. The gout is in his knees and ankles. He had surgery mid Jan. on his left knee to remove a major build up from gout. We have been to many specialtists with none to help. My husband is a self employed chimney sweep, with no employees. He has been unable to work since the 1st wk of Dec. We have no health ins. I am unable to work because he needs me to care for him, and our 2 children.
A couple of weeks ago we started to see a holistic dr. She is an applied kinsiologist. She has started him on suppliments to detox his liver, lymphatic system. I also give him baths in epson salt and apple cider vinegar. She suggested we get a book called Alkalize or Die by Dr. Baroody. It's about how if our bodies are too acidic we set the stage for disease in out body. His is drinking distilled water and herbal tea only. Eating plenty of raw vegetables, some fruit, organic foods.
My husband has been feeling much like you do. I know it doesn't help much, but you are not alone.
We don't know if going this route will help him or not. At this point we don't really have any other option. He cannot take the gout meds because they make him very sick.
I know when you're hurting and going through great trials it's hard to understand why. I don't know the answer to that. The only thing that is helping my husband and I hold on is our faith in Jesus Christ. We believe He will get us through this.
I don't know where you stand with what you believe, but I do know that the God who created you, loves you very much. So much that He sent His only Son to die on a cross so you wouldn't have to.
John 3:16,17 says "For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that who ever believes in Him would not perish, but have eternal life. God sent His Son into the world not to judge the world, but to save the world through Him."
If you don't know Him, I pray that you would come to know Him and He would give you strength, comfort and peace through this difficult time. I pray for your healing.
My heart goes out to you with love and compassion. I wish there was more I could do for you. I will post again if this form of cleansing and detoxing works for my husband.