sounds like bulimia. are you willing to see a psychologist?

im not sure, i dont think its gotten to be that big of a deal, i just dont know when it starts to be a problem, i have a friend who is also a dancer and she recently got way too thin, we arent too close but i helped her to gain back some weight and be more ok with her body. then i found myself almost asking her how she lost so much weight, so that i could do it, i was jealous. i would never want anyone else to do some of the things ive thought about trying. tonight even i had ice cream and now feel horrible that i let myself go, i only havent tried to throw it up because my parents are home. since ive never been successful at throwing up, it probably doesnt count as anything. i dont know. i just dont want to involve my family or anything, if i were to talk to anyone do you know how i could go about it anonimousy?

Hi, i started my anorexia, when i caught myself on the thought i was looking jealously at girls with very skinny body...i said to myself, i am strong enough to be kind and not envy jealous girl...if i want smth i get it and not envy...so i got as skinny as a model. and you know, then i struggled to be most clever and studied 14 hours a day and one day everything collapsed, i realised that i need to find my own way...
sooo find a friend in yourself and believe in your unique abilities...Bulimia is a suicide. just stop purging or laxatives, even if u have binged ,it is ok. entertain yourself, go disco dancing or meet with friends, read books ...be busy being happy!

I am sure u as a dancer can loose weight easier than those who seat in the office from 9 to 18. so be happy, and please dont kil yoursellf with bulimia or anorexia!