I have the same problem as well. I know how you all feel. I am 35. I have had back pain for many years but it has always gone away...except for this time. It hurts to walk, stand and yes even lay down! everyone seems to think that a Loratab and a heating pad should fix anything. Well, IT DOESNT!! I do agree that your friends and family should be supportive to you. I say this but my family has pretty much turned their back on me. I have a mental disease as well and have been very depressed since this happened. I have had rampant suicidal thoughts, but they dont really want to hear it anymore. I just got fired from my job because of this (unspoken), I am on disability ($623 a month, that is all) and I am being forced to move out of my house at 35 and move in with my grandmother in her apartment.
My girlfriend has been supportive somewhat. She thinks that I can "will" my recovery and that I should be doing Yoga. It sounds good in theory, but it doesnt seem like it is going to happen that way. She is just about fed up with me as well. I REALLY do not want to lose her. She is the love of my life. I have never loved anyone the way I love or as much as I love her! She means EVERYTHING to me and I feel like this is driving a wedge between us. She gets frustrated when I grunt or groan at the pain or if I wake up in the middle of the night in pain. She doesnt want me "doped up" either. I dont really want that either, but I NEED pain meds.
One of my friends really is understanding about this and appreciates the intensity and severity of it. We have friends that have major back problems, his mother has rheumatoid arthiritis as well. So I really feel like he understands, BUT at the same time, I feel like he is just looking at this as a way to get Oxycontin, IF they give that to me on Thursday. So, I feel like he has some alterior motive.
I have been so depressed since this has happened to me. It has really broken me. As I state dearlier, I have just about lost everything that I have and am used to. I have been very suicidal and those thoughts have pretty much consumed my every thought for the past 2 weeks.
I am sick of doctors thinking that I am just "drug seeking"! I am in pain and it is proven that my back is messed up pretty bad! I have a "massive ruptured disk" and "many degenerating disks", so my condition is not getting any better and to me the outlook is bleak.
I HOPE that I get what I need on Thursday at the Pain Management doctor. I hope that my girlfriend, who at the moment, according to her through a text message, is VERY DEPRESSED. I dont know why, she will not say, but I am sure it has something to do with us and our situation and my back pain. I hope that I dont kill myself and my family will SOON come around and just "be there" for me. I hope that my sister, with who I am VERY close, will one day soon return my calls. I hope that people will not think of me as a burden anymore. I guess that is ALL that I have left...HOPE.