Ok guys here goes... I have been with my girlfriend for 8 months now and things have been getting a little weird. First let me explain a little from our start...

We started off as friends, we were attracted to each other but would try to play hard and not admit it to each other. We would hang out every weekend and would get closer and closer. We were a little weird around each other at first till we just kinda got to know each other and kinda snapped out of it. We would mess around a lot but I would get too nervous when things were going to get to the next level and I would get un aroused. Well she stuck through all that and we finally made things official.

Things were going good and our alone time was great (very few awkward times). For a couple months now our sexy time has been kinda awkward.. I don't understand why I get nervous when I'm laying next to her. So much goes through my head (messing up, going soft, what will she think) that it kills the mood and makes it weird for the both of us. I always try to talk about it and I tell her to initiate it more ( I feel like she waits for me to do that). She tells me we talk about our alone time so much that it makes things weird. She tells me we should just stop talking about it or its not gonna stop. I even started popping Viagra before so I would worry about getting soft and even though I end up loosing it cause I start thinking of the past and messing up (i don't want to rely on this cause I never have)

I don't get what is going on. I never had a problem with my past relationships. I usually get nervous in the beginning and then after a good 2 times of alone time I get confident and the fun never stops. What can I do about this? I love this girl and don't want to loose her.

Sorry it was so long.