Oh my gosh Jamie, how are you even functioning after taking 4 clonopin? One of those things knocks me out for hours. They are a huge sedative for me. They must affect people differntly.
On another note, Im glad that you are doing better and that you are happy. That is what should matter, and like Ingi said what ever is best for your children is what you should do.
How far away from him are you? do the kids get to see him?