I was diagnosed as Type 2 bipolar some
time back. It tore up my family. My wife
and I have been reconciled for a year now
and I am faithfully having my condition
treated.
One strange thing I have noticed is that I
seem to have lost my fear. I am not
afraid of people and thrill rides do not
affect me at all although I find them fun.
I don't think they raise my heart rate.
I even went on one called "The Rip Cord"
which is basically a gigantic sling...
something like 200 feet in the air with
some vertical drop where you pull the cord
yourself to start it. The operator
actually looked at me funny and asked me
if I had fun because I had such a blase
expression. I was disappointed because I
wanted to get a thrill and it just did not
come.
Don't get me wrong.. I am not wreckless.
I don't do things which endanger me.
Actually, I am quite careful, especially
when driving. I can also be startled, but
it usually results in me laughing, and I
don't *think* it really raises my heart
rate.
Is this the meds? Is this the bipolar?
I guess I am not endangering myself, so
should I be concerned?
-T-
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Fairy Godmother
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Hi Posted: 01-30-08 17:46pm
Could very well be the meds. I know they
altered my moods. When I was on Effexor, I
could not cry. I was cold hearted and had
no fear. I have been off of it almost a
year now, and I can be sad and cry again.
I can feel sorry for someone. I did not
realize how it had altered my personality
until my daughter told me she wish she had
her old Mom back..........I'm back.
Depression does hurt, but there are
different meds and you have to find the
correct ones that work for you. I would
think bipolar ther should be various types
of meds as well. I would talk to your
physican and ask them your options! Good
luck! I can't ride thrill rides
anymore.....they make me blow
chunks!!!!!!!!!1
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geekylotus
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Joined: 10 Jun 2006 Posts: 21
Posted: 01-30-08 17:49pm
When I say I am not afraid of people.. I
mean someone can threaten me physically
and I have no fear. Don't ask me how... I
just manage to find myself in situations
from time to time. I don't escalate the
situations.
The lack of fear is liberating. I find
that it means that I don't throw
aggression back. I tend to stand there
calmly and wait for their next move and am
just ready to defend myself if I must.
I am not a small guy by any means... but
still. I used to at least get the
standard adrenaline fight or flight
thing.
-T-
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geekylotus
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Joined: 10 Jun 2006 Posts: 21
Re: Hi Posted: 01-30-08 17:55pm
Fairy*Godmother
wrote:
Could very well be the meds.
I know they altered my moods. When I was
on Effexor, I could not cry. I was cold
hearted and had no fear. I have been off
of it almost a year now, and I can be sad
and cry again. I can feel sorry for
someone. I did not realize how it had
altered my personality until my daughter
told me she wish she had her old Mom
back..........I'm back. Depression does
hurt, but there are different meds and you
have to find the correct ones that work
for you. I would think bipolar ther should
be various types of meds as well. I would
talk to your physican and ask them your
options! Good luck! I can't ride thrill
rides anymore.....they make me blow
chunks!!!!!!!!!1
Thanks for the response. Overall, my
changes have been positive. I am very
patient with my son, and I have found
myself expanding artistically. Initially
this was not true, but with time and just
working with my artistic media, the
creativity returned. My closeness with my
wife has gained in bounds also. Overall,
I am warmer than ever... it's just fear -
the shaky kind - that has gone. Logical
fear... the kind that helps you make calm
decisions - is still there.
-T-
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Fairy Godmother
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Hi Posted: 01-30-08 18:17pm
I understand totally! I am to that point
now. I am more rational and calm....I will
stand there as well and say ok. I am not
afraid as well. I kind of like it becaise
whem I was younger, I was picked on by
bullies. I'd love to see them NOW! So very
happy for you and your wonderful family!~
You sound like a great husband, friend and
father! God Bless you and yours! P.S. My
husband alias BIG DADDY is not a small man
either....... and he and I both get into
"those situations" , the pnly difference
is I help calm his big self down! Take
care!
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illectronic
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Joined: 02 Feb 2008 Posts: 16 Location: NYC,
Posted: 02-06-08 18:37pm
I just gave myself some risperdal until I
see a doctor for racing thoughts. Many
aypical antipsychotics like risperdal or
seroquel will numb down emotion in
general. It's hard for me to laugh, make a
joke, and get aroused, let alone fear
anything. Tell your doctor.
