Hi all, I'm new.
I would love to hear from someone.
I don't know if I'm truly depressed or what you should call it. I know that I am very stressed right now. I just finished college after going back in my 30's. Married with 3 kids. Now I can't find a job so far, and its almost time for my student loans to kick in. Husband is in a job that we both hate. the job is ok, but the required overtime is killing us. He has worked every single Sunday and every single holiday since April. About half the time Saturdays too. Hard on our family.

I had a rough time growing up. I know other people had it worse, but mine was not great. And my dad still blames me for it! He will call me and cuss me out at least once every 3 or 4 months. That is very stressful. i watched him abuse my mother physically and emotionally for years before we finally left. I still have nightmares at times about it.

My teenage niece just found out she is pregnant. she is not married and of course we will love her and help her out, I know this will be stressful for our family.

And to top it off, I think I'm just "down" a lot of time anyway. No energy, no "get up and go". Sometimes I look around and wonder why we are doing this. Just so we can get up and do it all over again tomorrow??

anyway, yesterday I talked to my doctor, who is also a family friend and he knows some of our "problems." I hate to call them problems because I don't have anything horrible that is wrong. Anyway, he prescribed cymbalta for me. I can already feel a difference. The only bad thing is I have had diarrhea since taking it. I already have ibs so this side effect is for sure not needed. I woke up several times last night, but was able to go back to sleep easily.

I took 20 mg yesterday. Now today i was reading on the internet to try to see what was said about the diarrhea. But I found people talking horrible about cymbalta! Said it was almost impossible to get off of, that they had horrible side effects after a little while of usage.

I just need someone's take on this. I want to feel better, but I don't want to become addicted or have horrible side effects.

Thanks,
Donna