Am I alone in this?

Im extremely worried because ever since the first trimester, i've been having irrational, fearful thoughts of hurting my baby. I don't want to hurt her, i cry every time i get them... but i just get the images in my mind that i might irrationally hurt the baby after she is born. They scare the crap outta me and i know that it is depression related, but i just need to know that i am not alone.

It's hard for me... this pregnancy thing, just because i feel like this being is a stranger to me. There's not much bonding going on.. while she's in there.
Every time i try to think about all the good things (picturing her giggles, her drooling, her birth) these awful thoughts chime in and overpower me. I try and try to think back to the positive .. but i end up crying in the end.

I'm currently starting treatment with a therapist just because i don't want this to turn into post partum deppression & i want this to be taken care of before she arrives....


I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY ABOUT THIS JOYFUL TIME IN MY LIFE ....